It is a shame I am your lover.

Tuesday, November 06, 2007, 9:14 PM

respect.

Dear Her.
I know you're well informed that like you read my blog, I read yours too. I'm gonna use this medium to let you know some of the things that I think has become my responsibility to let you know. Whether you understand it or not, I leave it to you.

If you ever listen to someone, listen with the most sincerity. There are none other that people look forward to than sincere listeners. As for me, truly I never bothered if one could help me out in a 'I talk you listen' procedure. Yes it is true you could help the person by making the person feel lighter after expressing the problems faced. It is never complete to listen, when you are not sincere enough.

If I may, I believe I am the 'stranger' you mentioned; someone you stupidly trust. Let me hereby declare I'm not a stranger. If you think I am, then I would have done and said much more than you deserved. I never regarded you as just another stranger in my life. I wont bother to make you realised things if I thought that you're a stranger. Cuz I dont love strangers. I dont share anything in my life with strangers. I'm an extreme person. By now I believe you would have known that.

You mentioned that you dont really belong in the house. You dont really blame someone for that. So who do you blame? I suggest you blame yourself. The thing about blaming yourself is that you will see things in a different light. If you want to remain optimistic, you want to remain cheerful, you blame yourself firstly and foremost. After that things will go your way, because nobody in their right mind would wanna keep blaming themselves. You are your own worst enemy. You will work for something that you think deserves a change in your life, and nobody other than yourself can make you really work your ass off for that. The house that you're staying in, its never really my home. Its just somewhere I return to because I'm obliged to do it. But the thing about myself is, I always wanna leave my touch wherever I go. I'm too headstrong, I want things done my way. That was why my room spells of me, not anywhere else in the house.

You mentioned that year 2007 has taught you alot. It has taught me alot too. All that family problems you have, I'm facing it too. In fact, I face more than you do, because I'm a little older than you and have to give it more thoughts than usual.

I am the way I am because I choose it. I choose to be strong. I choose to be independent. And my dear I choose to make the choices that I've made. I never once regretted it. If I do, I'll regret living. I know the difference between my choices and fate. I accept both willingly. I might appear deaf, blind and mute at times. But even when I'm sleeping, my senses are wide awake. Know me, I promise you will never regret it. I've asked alot of people on their opinions about me, and I know what impacts and effects I have on different people. You will never see a same me every single moment. You will never know my next behaviour. I admit, the most difficult part about me is that I'm unpredictable. I got my four seasons. You knew too well I could never be perfect. I dont even want to be. It would take the fun out of everything I do.

Dont sympathise with your own self. It only makes you weaker and will develop a sense of scorn from others. Dont ask questions, instead seek to find the answer. Sometimes, there is an answer to no questions. There is a reason as to why reasons occur. There is a reason why God choose me for you, someone who is older, and even looks like you. Ponder on it. I expect changes the next time I see you. And since you know respect begets respect, start respecting me. Start with courtesy. I'll continue the rest for you. I promise.

PS: This post is in blue because you like the colour. =]

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it is a shame I am your lover



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