It is a shame I am your lover.

Friday, February 29, 2008, 2:09 PM

sick and tired.

i am so frigging sick today. i hate being sick. i'll go all stoopid and requesting for attention all over the place which i know i'll never get. not unless if its a weekend. so i slept the whole morning, which means i have to miss school. its not really a big deal anyways because today the sample lectures are chemistry/biology and management of business which i'm not going for both cuz i cant take science at a-level standard for being to unscience and plainly cuz i've taken and managed to fail my management of business. so it means i'm not interested in that subject, really.

the 08a7 bbq is on the 9th of march. next week. aiyah.. i wanted it so badly on this week cuz there is no school on monday. sheesh. plus sha is not able to make it cuz she got some wedding to attend to, if i'm not mistaken. and i dont really know if fateha is coming. i really dont know whats wrong, maybe its me. but she hasnt been talking to me at all. so yeahh. i'm doubtful if she is gonna come though. so its gonna be me and the loony classmates. i'm so looking forward to it.

anyways, again, i'm craving for crispy waffle which i wanted both norfi and diyanah to go with me. i've persuaded both of them to eat it but still couldnt get the right time, cuz norfi got her calendar full. that flat nerd. i told her i can never look at her the same way again. wakaka!

oh yeahh. there is this new fella in school called zara. omg. she is so damn irritating larh kn. i dont really like her. she was in my h2 malay sample lecture, and gosh, i swear she is obnoxiously loud. and i hope against hope i will never have her in my new home class. i'll die of suffocation and trying to control my temper from flaring against her. this is so bias really but i can really feel my blood boiling at the look at her. and i promise you, it has nothing to do with her looks or whatever. its nothing nice.

i wanna spend the weekend with izyan i think. she is still to weak to get out of her house, so me, being the ever oh-so-nice bestfriend decided to go to her house. only if she is available. aku rindu banget sama kamu yanti.

oh btw, i'm still missing that tomaikutaneighbourofmine.
please appear..

Labels: muackies.

Thursday, February 28, 2008, 6:53 PM

updates.

so below are the pictures that i promised to them that i'll show at my blog. anyways they managed to cam-whore using my handphone. these pictures minus the ugly side of them that i have the heart not to post larh. they better be grateful larh kan. haha. anyways they are the pretty boys and handsome girls. i think we skipped literature sample lecture and they decided to go to the library. during that long hours, they had nothing better to do other than playing psp, joking around, laugh LOUDLY and of course cam-whoring.

then the other more below pictures are the mascots for our clan, flintstones. haha! i lurrrrrvvvvveeee that day sangat2. really enjoyed myself. oh yeahh, btw i helped with the wilma mascot, none other than amir. wakaka! check out the size d boobs yeah?

okey i'm pretty tired and lazy to update anything other than that. but whatsoever okey. 08a7 planning some bbq thingy i suppose. that is coming up soon. and my ever beloved 4e3 also planning a chalet. please ehh kandar, kali ni mesti jadi nye. and i wanna get my pretty boys and handsome girls to go sentosa one fine day.

6:33 PM

pictures speak a thousand words.

Labels: pretty boys and handsome girls

Thursday, February 21, 2008, 9:15 PM

jae orientation.

The Bottom Line
Friends should give you advice on personal stuff, not money matters. Go to experts.

In Detail
You need to know where to go for the information that will help you the most in life. Instead of asking friends for advice on how to fatten up your rapidly-thinning piggy bank, go ask an expert. Friends are who you should talk to about your love life, work hassles and other personal dramas. But when it comes to finances, investments and your savings account, you don't want to mix those two worlds. Sharing too much about how much money you make or have could also create unnecessary friction.

today is like only the 2nd day of orientation and i'm sooooo uber tired. i'm seriously having second thoughts about attending tmr's orientation, but then i dont wanna miss the fun. okey so today is frigging fun, i managed to get forget myself for a moment. i had fun screaming and shouting and running around with those familiar faces and the new ones too. oohhh and the game is so original larh kan. its definitely better than my batch orientation. kudos to the ne council, sc and sports council! me and siyuan decided to join illegally another group of the same clan because ours is so boring. like they really got no life gitu. the group i've joined got my friends larh (duh!) so very happening. and these are some of the reactions i got from some people.

they thought i'm a quiet girl. like hello..

ironically, some thought i'm very noisy.

they got confused over my reactions. like i can scold you jokingly but i dont really mean it. its just me really.

i'm very forgetful. like of course larh.. so many new people i meet today okey.

so thats some of the reactions. right now, i'm thinking of those new friends i've made, and i cant even remember one name. hahakz. what happen to good memory? so yeah. the running around is crazy. i'm so freaking tired. sheesh. all i want now is a good hug from him.

so tired as i was, i decided to follow my instinct to go for band practice today. so i went, after waiting for some time for that belo guy taufik. at last, i met him and off we went. my stomach was grumbling like super loudly larh. bought some food and when we entered the school gate, the security guard said he had no more passes to issue because today there is alot of ex-band members who came. i thought he is exaggerating. but when i entered the band room i saw most of my frens. i'm so happy to see them larh. like so long already we didnt talk and joke around together. but we are still missing mamat. he always come at the wrong moment larh, that cacat fella.

plans to sentosa went down the drain for now. we still couldnt plan properly. but i think its kinda hard to get everyone to come down now, but i soooooo miss them larh. i hope the plan to go soon will rekindle somehow someway.

so now bedtime. chop chop!

ps: i miss that neighbour of mine.

oh btw.

he looks like toma ikuta!

Labels: muackies.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008, 3:15 PM

new.

The Bottom Line
You have a right to be opinionated about things. But be prepared to learn, too.

In Detail
Just because you're not exactly up to date on what's going on with controversial issues doesn't mean that you don't have a right to an opinion. Education doesn't just come from books and schools. Knowledge can come from everyday interactions with others. So speak up and say what you think about something. Sure, you should be prepared to be schooled on one or two things, but so what? Being proven wrong isn't so bad, as long as you learn something in the process.

tomorrow the school will welcome a new bunch of pupils as the new pu1 cohort 2008. so it means tomorrow the jae orientation will start. okey so i'm excited. yeah why not. meet an entirely new group of people. hahakz. i'm not really excited for the whole orientation thingy though. for me, i think its just a waste of time. but i am excited doing the mi dance again. wee~~

i've met boyfir at last. trust me, its agony not meeting someone you loved dearly for more than a month. but thats what is keeping my lurve for him going ever so strong. yeahh. he is so my hottlurve.

amirah sent me the silly pictures we took in class during our last few days. hahakz. we really look silly. oh boy am i gonna miss them loads. as a matter of fact, today is the day they get their posting results. i know two students who for sure is coming back. the rest, well, i suppose they will take their separate ways. i wish you guys all the best in whatever you do, and keep in contact yeah? swit lurve!

i wanna go do my hari raya outfit soon. woah so semangat. since i already got the kain might as well do it right. i just cant decided yet what kinda design i want for this year. and i wanna do one with boyfir too. again, the colour of the year is green. but i want to wear something i'll thought i'll never ever wear. i just cant decide yet. oh well. a looooonnnnggg way to go. plenty of time to think.

Labels: blabbing.

Monday, February 18, 2008, 6:55 PM

shun ogori!

i was watching the show hanazakari no kimitachi e again. and i find out i was so in love with most of the characters. one should really watch it if one is feeling down. its a high-school love comedy. its worth the watch. here is some pictures.

Hanazakari No Kimitachi E

Nakatsu Shuichi, Ashiya Mizuki & Sano Izumi

The photoshoot in the show

Shun Ogori as Sano Izumi

Toma Ikuta as Nakatsu Shuichi

Hiro Mizushima as Minami Namba

i lurve all the characters. its very unlike singapore tv shows. firstly, the plot is damn engaging. secondly, the actors are damn hott! thirdly, well.. the actors are damn frigging hott. hahakz. its a must watch okey. i'm as crazy over this show as i am over hindi movies. so i guess those who knows me gets the picture huh? so yeah.

Labels: hanazakari no kimitachi e

Saturday, February 16, 2008, 11:40 PM

happy bdae dear ria and nadiyah.

The Bottom Line
Don't freak if people call you cheap -- you're in charge of your money, that's that.

In Detail
Saving money should be at the top of your list right now, no matter what social activities are coming up. Do you really need a new outfit? Do you really have to fly business class? Trim back on your excess expenses right now and you will be very happy you did later. So what if other people accuse you of being cheap? It's no joke, but you'll be the one laughing -- all the way to the bank to check on how your savings account has been growing!

well today is the 16th of february. which means its my dearest friend, ria and my dearest cousin, nadiyah bdae. many happy returns of the day. and i wish you girls all the best for your future endavours.

today, we headed to royal plaza the scotts or scotts plaza the royal whatever its called to celebrate my cuzzie's bdae. it was agony i think, while we waited for the high-tea buffet to start. my empty stomach was playing techno a little too loudly i think. lucky us there were some paintings exhibition going on, so i could advert my attention to something else other than my stomach. so yeah, eventually we went in. the ambience was so romantic. really. i totally fall in love with it. and the waiters are really hawt too. i fall in love with a guy called omar, who served us all the time. it turns out my uncle knows him. he's like my far-far cousin by marriage. i love most of the food, though i wasnt adventurous enough to try the seafood platter. from the mr bean's show, i thought it was served raw too. but it was not. the rest of them tried it though, and all had the same reactions. they ate it with lemon squirted on it, so it was kinda sour, by the expressions on their faces. hahakz. i should have recorded it. in fact, i should have taken pictures, but i forgot to. because i was too busy stuffing myself with those yummylicious food spread. oh and everyone should try the choc fondue. it is by far one of the nicest i've tried, and i've tried loads. the choc is not too sweet, and there is the right amount of cocoa-bitterness in it. i dont know how to explain it aite; i'm no food critic. but take me for my word. if you wanna wash your eyes, relax your senses, go there. its the perfect place i suppose. and asked personally for omar to served you. you'll be pleased, i guarantee. =]

so after that we went window-shopping at shaw centre and marina square. watched lil bits of chingay. it was kinda fun really, with all those lights and stuff. but i guess its a little too crowded for my taste. i met someone at marina square. i didnt know i really missed him, until i saw his sturdy figure that i know too well.

anyways, valentines day was kinda great for me. woked up to a number of messages from darling friends. and when i go to school, i received a number of prezzies from my classmates. they were so adorable. some even go all home-made and stuff. pictures will be up soon. including those we took during their last day in school. i lurved them, and sure will miss their company and laughter and presence. then i went back to my old school, received a lil something from my junior. and some of my friends i met along the way. it really was like friendship day larh. i was happy for the most part of the day, except when fateha decided to go all moody. i dont really know the reason, and she decided not to disclose it to me yet, which is so not her. so i'm not gonna push her to tell me why.

tomorrow, thought of going swimming again. but i have to meet darling twin sis and boyfir, my two most beloved people in this world. i'm so excited to meet them. havent seen their noses for succccchhhhh a long time. sheesh. talk about being busy. so yeah. gotta tuck in now already. goodnite. switdreams.

Labels: muackies.

Monday, February 11, 2008, 7:00 PM

ion danker.

The Bottom Line
Communicate clearly and honestly to friends that you're not feeling very social now.

In Detail
Today you will have no problem squashing your travel bug -- you're feeling much more drawn to homey activities and cozy couch-bound nights than big journeys. However, you might be the only person in your group who feels this way, which could cause some confusion when everyone starts talking about how excited they are to hit the road. Communicate clearly and honestly that they can count you out -- make sure they know that it's just the mood you're in, nothing personal.

so i guess the only solution to any problem is to talk it out. regardless of how hard or difficult its gonna get. its not something i look forward to, but staying this way is more than what i bargained for. so i suppose i'll talk to them. soon. i lurve you peeps loads.

okey so the best part of the day was i get my crispy banana chocolate waffle! at last. hahakz. i went with fate who is kind enough to accompany me. though i know she got a date with her darling jordin. hahakz. yeah so the waffle was awesome, because i've been craving for it since i cant remember when. then we walked around velocity while finishing it. and guess what we saw? a shop with the most amazing sale ever. i'm so gonna get my stuffs there larh. like really, its damn cheap. i'm so not gonna miss it. then we decided to go all crazy. buy a cup of bubble tea each and went to tan tock seng hospital and pretend we are visitting someone. hahakz. so we had to create nonsense when a nurse asked who we are looking for when we are at the john hopkins ward. i just realize i got an imaginary grandmother whose name is rahimah. like its so random larh, courtesy of fate, really. so after that we went to the heritage musuem. and we got to know someone called ion danker, who is like so adorably hot. hahakz. fate was the one positively flirting with him. yeah so after that it was home sweet home.

i dont know why, but sometimes i find ite guys really childish. is there really a need to talk ever so loudly in the train? like, not everyone is interested to know about every single gory detail of your life. sheesh. maybe just shutting up will attract you more attention than being so boisterous. take this as an advice from me. and this goes to all ite students.

to darling boyfir. please please please talk to me. i really miss you so. and again, i'm gonna say i'm sorry. this comes from the bottom of my heart, and its not because you are acting this way to me. its because i really lurve you so. do whatever it takes. i'm gonna stay strong and make you realise no other can take you away from me.

Labels: wish upon a star.

Saturday, February 09, 2008, 4:15 PM

not letting things get to me.

this is so frigging irritating. for one whole day, i've not had peace due to my period cramps. shit shit shit. no wonder i've been behaving like a biatch these few days. i should have known the symptoms. and yes han, you win. you are so gonna get your darn ice-cream.

i miss going out. like really. technically, i dont have friends anymore. friends who said i could turn to them despite anything that happened. so who do i go out with? strangers. like yeah right. i should have known never to take their words for granted, cuz its so on the surface you know. i will still love them, like forever. but sometimes i just cant get that feeling out of inside me. like say feeling left out. yeah i know, i'm the one who doesnt bother to spend time with them, but when i do, i feel like they feel too bothered with me. their greetings are so not normal anymore; no more warmth and sunshine. why, the other day, i was sitting right in front of them and none of them bothered to say something that shows they knew i existed. i was like "what the hell is wrong with you guys?!" maybe its me. i dont know. but its just so hard to talk, i cant find the perfect time. or rather, the perfect situation for everyone. it might not be obvious, but i feel shy among you people alright. for reasons that are so frigging obvious, i dont think i need to spell it out. to do what i'm doing, it takes courage and plenty of thick-skins. if i cant even face my friends, then who will i face? if ever, knowingly or unknowingly, i hurt any of your feelings, and that any of you think that you deserve a sincere apology, i would have do it. but if only i'm in the wrong. i dont know if i'm feeling a little too sensitive, but i really miss you all. like my friends. i want to laugh with you all once again, want to make myself crazy. but i just cant do it, not without any of you. damn i feel hurt. if anyone notice why i'm like so sombong nowadays, i guess you would have known why by now. if you happen to read this post. i absolutely miss you guys, no words can explain how truly i feel it.

and boyfir. stop behaving like that. i damn need you right now. are you going to isolate me too? just because i'm not the same standards as some people? i've said sorry, gazillion of times. do i have to go all old-school and appear before you? do i have to serenade you? because i think i will you know. i'm sick and tired of having to keep every single frigging feeling to myself. i think i'll burst, one fine day. i want you right now, this minute.

Labels: if you would understand.

Wednesday, February 06, 2008, 5:32 PM

happy chinese new year

The Bottom Line
You'll be exposed to more than one new point of view about a touchy topic today.

In Detail
Working with other people will be very interesting and stimulating for you today -- you'll be exposed to more than one new point of view regarding a topic you thought was old-hat. Just when you thought you had everything all figured out -- bam! There goes that assumption. Radical changes will abound for you, soon. This is a time of philosophical growth. You might even find yourself exploring little-known philosophies and religions just to see what all the fuss is about.

firstly and foremost i wanna wish a happy chinese new year to all my chinese frens. enjoy ur angpow. and whatever you guys and gerls do on chinese new year. to siyuan, dont forget uh, half ur angpow is like literary mine larh. gong xi!

secondly, happy cny hols to those not celebrating. i'm so gonna make the full use of this cny hols. its gonna be one long holiday for me. yeah!

so just now was cny celebrations and total defence commemoration. guess what? opening the celebration is some lion dance. i was freaked out larh. and was nearly crying already. then fate accompany me to the toilet, before i really started crying. hahakz. by the time we come back, a group from princess elizabeth primary school is playing the violin for us. they are so adorable, and i was practically jealous because at such a young age, they managed to play the violin so fantastically. hahakz. so came the various cultural dance group. i especially like the malay dance. it was titled jubilation. and its theme is retro. i loike!

oh yeah to the fuckface model in school, that is what retro is all about. you dont see me wearing all that right? cuz i think you are so backwards in your fashion knowledge. come to me, i'll teach you some basic. like what a model should really look like, firstly.

after the celebrations, went to tampines to meet sis. well lets just say its totally a place for matrip and minahrip larh ehh. i hate going there i think. and for goodness sake, to a certain someone, please stop acting so childish. i cant believe underneath that exterior, there is someone so vulnerable to an older gerl's stare. huh? like wth larh kan. oh and i already met my sis bf. like damn short larh ehh. i so got a reason to tease them now.

okey so now valentine is near. i wonder what to do for my dearest boyfir. and to the rest of my friends. in the words of beloved HamHam, spread the love! if thats the case, i have to like be the daughter of a billionaire, cuz i'm so not good with my hands to do something personalised or whatever. hmm..

Labels: festives

Tuesday, February 05, 2008, 4:37 PM

ramblings.

The Bottom Line
Today your deep thoughts may leave you feeling confused, but are you over thinking?

In Detail
Today your intense and deep thoughts might leave you feeling confused, but that is perfectly understandable. You're dealing with a lot of different requests and invitations, the sum of which could leave you at a loss about what to do next. As soon as you can, today, seek out a comforting shoulder to lean on. Spill your thoughts with this generous friend, and you will feel a lot better. Just saying things out loud will help you determine which things are most important. Focus on these first.

okey. so i'm gonna follow the advice above. anybody wanna be that generous and comforting friend? haha.

i've been skipping lessons like nobody's business. yeah, like if i come there is gonna be proper lesson. we've been having games that i just think sometimes i'm just wasting time by coming to school, really. i cant wait for this pae period to be over. and i hope i'll meet again some peeps i've know from pae.

accompanied siyuan to amk yesterday. ate hotdog wrapped in prata. haha. its like any normal pita larh. but its nice, whatever. then we were so tired we took the bus home, and we dozed off. well i disturbed siyuan first before anything. hahakz. and i'm still missing my crispy waffle. its so yummy larh. maybe i'll go tomorrow to get some.

so tomorrow we are gonna finish school early cuz i think we only got chinese new year celebration. and after that i wanna go bedok or tampines with my sis. hmm. then after that is hols. woohoo!

hmm. i'm not forgetting my friends who will be sitting for their common test soon. wish you guys and gerls best of luck. do your best yeah? after that we plan an outing, yeah? muackies!

Friday, February 01, 2008, 5:03 PM

insanity.

The Bottom Line
Fast action without a solid plan is just a waste of your time, so think it through.

In Detail
Acting fast without a solid back-up plan is just a waste of time. Instead of hurrying around trying to get everything done, stop and think. Get organized and put together a logical plan of attack before you go off willy-nilly on a wild goose chase. Many of your errands can be combined, and some of those meetings can happen over the phone instead of in person. Take a few minutes early in the day to think everything through, and you'll save yourself a couple of hours later.

school is getting more boring by the day. more and more people are withdrawing. i guess they just think that the a-level route is not for them. hmm. its kinda sad really. seeing those friends you have made, going away. and even though sometimes the people in my class are so irritatingly childish, they are a good sort. and i'm so lurving the teachers nowadays larh. cuz there are hardly any students to teach, so they let us play games. like just now, we didnt even study for one day. we played the mafia game in both literature and geography. hahakz. even the teachers joined us. its like really true huh, when they say there's a kid in everyone.

so tomorrow is the long-awaited weekend. i guess i'm going swimming again. i got no more plans larh sehh. and oh yeah. there is like this outdoor cinema thing i so wanna go. i wanna get most of my friends to go; or maybe just my chinese boyfriend. it will be a so slow, un-romantic date ever. hahakz!

and talking about my chinese boyfriend, he is so irritating. he only told us the match is cancelled when we are nearly back to school. okey that's an exaggeration larh, but we were mere minutes away from school okey. lucky us we werent in the bus, or else.

i find out that at amk, there is this one stall selling THE nicest goreng pisang ever. i really swear larh. its like, it melts in your mouth. double delicious. no, make it triple. i was sceptical at first. cuz it so did not look that inviting larh. but when i tried it, i really dont regret it. i think, i got influenced by someone larh, cuz now i'm craving for nonsensical food. like fried mars bars and crispy waffle. and oh yeah, i wanna go simpang bedok to just eat. how pathetic can i get? well whatever. and the seafood restaurant i went with my family the other day. the oat prawns we had was ultimately mouth-watering. really, i swear. oh gosh.. the bright side of this is, i already know who i want to ask. =]

anyways. boyfir is so missed. like i havent meet him for ages i think. and he cant meet me this weekend cuz he got some crap course to go. idiotic right? such a pain in the ass seh, all this army shit. that's why i have to plan for swimming see? cuz he's not gonna be there. *winks* anyways, anyone who wanna come please tell me yeah? i'm going like say, in the afternoon. or rather before that, when its not really that hott. cuz the sun burns you see.

Labels: food-cravings