so the results are out. lets just say i was a little too disappointed of what my friends had achieved when i came back to school to be there for them. yes, some did too wonderful for words, but maybe some deserved what they get. i've seen and heard them playing the fool the year they are doing their o-level. so its really no wonder that they get what they get. and they cried. i mean, okey i sympathise and all that. but not fully. and my brother did not do as well as i expected him to. too bad, i wont be able to see him in MI this year.

when the results are out, the PAE students dont need to come to school during the JAE exercise. so the school has organised some activity to do for us 'permanent PU1 students'. since cny is just around the corner, we have to help some old people to decorate their houses and do some spring-cleaning. firstly i was skeptical even to do this, because i dont really think its my thing. but after met them and helped them do their shopping for the decorations, i find them really cute. at least mine is. he cannot walk properly because his legs are weak. so he had this cute way of walking. hahakz. but there are others, i mean the old people. who really took advantage of our kindness to buy some things that are so obvious that they needed. i mean, wigs, balloons? damn necessary for cny huh. what the hell. i really hate that old woman. she was practically at the cashier for more that 30 minutes, taking items after items to be paid by us. actually the teachers. poor thing the teachers. they definitely got no choice.

i'm watching eklavya now, a touching hindi movie. well what else is there to do right? i got nothing better to do than watching tv on a saturday. boyfir is out with his friends to beach road to get some stuffs. and as usual he wont let me follow him. so bad right? and i suppose tomorrow he cant wait for his birthday party. hmm. and yeah happy birthday again to dear abang tomi. best of luck in your future endavours.

Labels: saying what I think

well well. today was a nice day to sabo our dear already 18th friend. hahakz. she got a nice dose of doughnut on her face and a fair share of flour, whipcream and water after school. then we had the cake we bought for her. hmm. it did not really go to plan but the most important thing is we had fun. unlike someone who got nobody to celebrate with her other than her hubby. and that only at delifrance despite the fact that she is a self-proclaimed rich model. huhu.

anyways today is quite a special day. at last i managed to achieve my target. finding out his name. hahakz. i'll keep the details to myself, but here's a hint. i think he is a mini-hottstuff. hahakz. like he look similar to him. i can go gugugaga over him. sometimes i swear i salivate at the only sight of him. here's my other target. to take pictures with him. ok go!

talking about today, i found out that a certain someone is bitching about me. wow. why am i not surprise i wonder. i guess she is just waiting for me to confront those untruths she said about me. like wth. its totally not me. and she dared to mention the fact that she is talking about me. i'm bidding my time. just wait. gerl you never know what is going to happen to you next, you coward. i promise you before you can even mention about me i'll have shut your mouth for you. tell me i dont dare. and thanks for updating yourself by reading my blog. i'm like honoured, totally. but i suggest you stop polluting my blog with your presence. because unlike you, i get first class updates about you. from people, get this straight, who loathed you and once you considered your friend.

boyfir's birthday is coming. i gave him a humble present, you know me not coming from a well-off family. he likes it. hahakz. i'm glad. anyways he had a party organised by his relatives which i'm not going yet, because i dont suck up to my in-laws and shit. i just dont think its polite to hang around someone's son forever just because you know he ever asked for a break-up once. and he might do it again, if he could find someone total opposite of you. like tall, stunning, etc. you know, all the things that you are not. and it shows how you're brought up you know. i'm not gonna touch on your parents. because i, unlike you, got beautiful manners.

Labels: BITCH YOU.

okey yesterday was one of my most eventful days for this year. why? cuz i watched a live soccer match at school which i thought involved my hawtstuff. well sadly, he tore his ligament so i've to satisfy myself by watching him showing off his skills at the side of the field. i know what my friends mean now. he really did not have to make any effort and his ball went flying like so high. i went like "wow!"

anyways. the real event of the day. some kids from some pathetic secondary school nearby could not control the anger, or rather their mat reps ways. hahakz. some vulgarities, stares and rude handsigns are exchanged between us, the mere spectators and loyal plus semangat MI schoolgirls and those pathetic kids from that nearby secondary school. all of us five girls were feeling damn hot larh seyy. at the way they played their games. wth. you just dont injured someone else who's absolutely better than you dumbass. poor GG was stepped on the leg i think, and that made him so angry. and Nas was like so penyabar larh ehh. i wonder how he did it. i suppose the game is much more important than anything else. well, boys. apart from that, a kid from that pathetic secondary school had to stand outside the school gate with his two absolutely fat comrades, which i doubt will do much help other than making the boys laugh at the fatness. haiz. pathetic kids.

we of course managed to laugh at some idiotic jokes we made. we came up with incredibly weird names for our players. hahakz. mat sahak. poor innocent guy. kumma. well that is really his name actually. only we found out that was his second name. hahakz. so we were cheering and laughing at the players. and ourselves too. and oh yeah. i'm definitely liking this fella from fuchun secondary school. mir. well that's what is on his jersey. he is so cute. like younger cute if you get what i mean. and i think i'm positively flirting with him. hahakz. okey that is so minah.

this is funnier news okey. my friend told me a friend of his who is like 30 years old and who wanted to get to know me. i was practically laughing my head off. like, its so weird uh. like i'm going out with my own dad. eww..

Labels: soccer game

assignments are really coming in like crazy right now. haha. i've yet to start on any because i've decided to shop for my boyfir's birthday gift. i'm still not sure though what to get for him. plus my brother's birthday is on the same date too. perfect huh? now i'm really broke.

school was not bad. managed to interact more with my classmates. they rock. they are so fun i wonder if they are fine sometimes. thanks to mr idris larh ehh, for giving us homework he expects to be handed in by tomorrow. freak teacher. plus i just switched off during maths lesson just now. its getting too crappy for me. and its only the first topic! its damn difficult, and mr thiang says the next topic is tougher. wth! malay was darn boring. we went through imbuhan. like i never had enough of that during my secondary school days. all these tenses, verbs and vocabs can really make me go yyyaawwnnnnn.

anyways i just hate it when some people pretend that it is beneath you to talk to someone you were once upon a time close to. yeah you definitely had a reputation of being a friend-hopper and i think i'm disliking you by the day. i doubt its me really, because i the others can really charmed me and there are no aura of pretence among themselves. if i had ever done something that offended you, please i assure you telling me wont do any harm to yourself. i might have the reputation of being one of the fiercest girl you ever know, but i dont bite. maybe i should just ignore you just like you ignored me. i know i dont really could ever call you my friend again.

nowadays, its hard to put my feelings down on words. i'm wishing with all my might that someone who would understand would come in my life everytime i needed someone to talk to. someone who is not to caught up with life. someone who could spend the time with me. someone who could listen to me. someone who could understand. i felt so trapped in my own heads with these weird thoughts tumbling in my head. seriously, i think i got a mental problem. i never was like this. i once thought i had someone to turn to, or rather a few someones to turn to. then i realised with a hard bang on my face its not always true. i dont want to betray anyone. but sometimes its just so hard when you're stuck in my position. i dont ever want to go crazy. i want to talk. most importantly i want to talk to someone who would understand. gosh just what the hell is wrong with me?!

Labels: worse to worst.

i got nothing to do. so decided to change my blogskin. got it from my favourite guy who did the most wonderful skins ever. most of my skins are from him. tried making mine but i guess my skills, or rather my non-existence skills seemed to be in denial mode. hahakz. i just cant do it.

anyways, my legs are hurting me like mad. had my first pe for this year and i suppose its a shock to my body. i admit i'm a little too weak. yeah. but whatever it is, my class rocks big time. they are so nice. they are somehow like o7a5 without the people in it yeah. so i suppose i'm lucky.

school had been bearable so far. miraculously, i managed to stay awake throughout lessons. some are fine, but geography is kinda boring nowadays. the teacher just drones on and on and sometimes too much on those things that are not really that important. maths getting kinda difficult by the lesson. ugh. i hate maths. totally.

for the first time in my life, i had the most embarrassing situation that involved that period of the month. hahakz. i nearly cried when i realised i had stained my skirt. for goodness sake, i totally dont know what to do if not for fateha who stick by me throughout that washing period. hahakz. then because i'm feeling bored and rebellious, i did something kinda bad. it will make people queue for hours. haha. i'll just keep my mouth shut here shall i?

i miss boyfir. i havent had a proper convo with him for ages now. and i've yet to see him. plus his birthday is coming and i so dont know what to get for him. hmm. any ideas, anyone?

Labels: realisation.

The Bottom Line
Take the advice of friends and associates (that you didn't take before). It's wise.

In Detail
Lucky for you, you'll get a great opportunity for a 'do over' today -- you will finally get your chance to take the advice of friends and associates (that you chose not to take in the first place). Hold your head when you go against your previous decision and do not be embarrassed at all! After all, you are not so insecure as to worry about what other people think of you, are you? You should be focused on doing what is right, not on doing what looks best from the outside.

it has been ages since i update my blog. admittedly, i got nothing to blog about really. anyways, recently life has taken its toll on boredom. ugh. i just got nothing better to do than being a pig. those of you who misses life as a pig, well my advise is dont. you totally have no idea how it feels like to continuously be a pig, literally.

so what's life as a retainee, i hear someone ask? well it sucks. big time. i have to interact with people younger than me and sometimes i just think they are too childish for words. it gets me thinking you know, whether i am that childish too once upon a time. they still had their secondary school ways and i dont deny i get pissed off more frequently these days. maybe its just something going inside my head. or maybe its just my surroundings you know. my class is great, they are brilliant and comitted and stuff, but i still miss my friends yeah. nothing could ever replace them.

lessons have been going pretty easy, coupled with the fact that its damn difficult. i swear i havent lose my head just as yet to continue taking the subject combination i am taking right now. mathematics is getting more complicated than ever. and oh yeah. i found out that those who adores maths are usually one of those people who gets insane faster. haha. lucky me i loathe mathematics. malay class is so noisy. those non-malay speaking people are getting on my nerves by the minute. too bad you're damn stoopid to understand the language, but its worse still you cant keep your mouth shut during lessons. just wth.

plus i'm missing boyfir loads these days. he is busy with his work and i'm too busy being a pig so we hardly managed to talk at all. i guess all i really want now right now is someone i could talk to. someone who can gimme the time to talk without any interruptions. someone who would understand. i guess i'm pretty selfish if i wanted him for myself when i absolutely know his situation. but deep down my heart, i cant help but wonder when its gonna end.

moody tone aside, plans for swimming are up tomorrow. anybody interested to come along with me please contact me. going to woodlands swimming complex. please kindly bring your own food because swimming usually makes you hungry, beats me why. and get ready for teasing and fun. so those who i'm gonna see tomorrow, i'm gonna see. those who i'm not, well some other time i suppose.

Labels: whatever.