The Bottom Line
If a friend can't communicate what they want, that's too bad. You're no mind reader.

In Detail
If someone you care about has been acting oddly toward you, do not make any assumptions as to why they are behaving the way they're behaving. And by the same token, don't make excuses for them either. If they can't communicate their feelings or expectations to you, then that is their fault. You cannot take responsibility for it -- what are you, a mind reader? Nope -- which is why you shouldn't feel bad if they try to send you on a guilt trip. Don't go there!

I just reached home and trust me, it was a super duper waste of time and money. I woke up like so early to an empty house and it just din went well with my mood. But whatever yar. So had a shower and dressed and went to hospital with granny. After a LONGG time waiting and doing hospital procedures all I had to do was to come again on some day next month to do a better x-ray. What was the whole point of me coming just now huh? Sheesh. I could just like go to school and do better things than go around doing something that is so not worthwhile.

Tomorrow is gonna be Teachers' cum ACES Day. Those who registered are gonna go for this run and the rest would be doing kickboxing, I heard. Haha! Its so gonna be fun cuz this is my first kickboxing experience. Wee~ Actually I totally forgot to buy my Home Tutors any presents. It totally slipped my mind. And I'm so feeling lazy to go out right now to buy something for them. Nevermind. Anyways I might be going back to Sembawang Sec if time is on my side. Cikgu Zaibah wanted to have a lesson tomorrow which I'm so not gonna look forward to. *sigh*

I havent seen my hottstuff for quite sometime. Actually since this week. I hope he is not out of school or something cuz I so havent had enough of him. Haha. I can admit it again and again. He is HAWT!

Had a phonecall from darling Hubby just now. He got this duty for the AOH. He said he was tired and all. Poor darling.. I hope I can meet him this weekend. I'm so missing him! Lurve you sangat2.

Anyways until then. Lurve all you honey-ed sugar and sugarettes! Muackies!!

Just what the hell. I hate that SELF-PROCLAIMED model though I hardly knew her except that she is one attention-seeking bimbo. Sheesh. Hunn maybe you need to take a great look at your ugly self before even daring mentioning about someone else. You said you knew that ex-national cheerleader? Why din you confront her upfront? Fear might not be in your lousy vocabulary, but it is certainly in your eyes. That fear includes admitting to yourself hunn that she is miles better than you anytime and you knew it. There are alot more that I would dearly lurve to mention but I'm not like you. Afraid and cowardly. And let me assure you that she is not too. I did not know why I cant tag at your darn taggy but the only reason I can think of is that you dont like hate-taggers who give you a lil life that you so blardy need. I guess you dont even know what you are talking about cuz you just have that bimbotic character in you that shows so clearly. Oh and you know what? Your parents are just as bad as you are, and that is not being rude. Itz being truthful. Get it right model. "I believe jealousy is a disgust; that's how badmouthing begins." Get a life all right? Everything is contradicting whatever that you mean. Everything you mentioned is just reflecting yourself. Admit it, YOU STINK.

I am so going to be bored tomorrow. Its my appointment at the hospital and I hate it. Itz gonna take hours so I'm so gonna be dead. And of all days itz on a Thursday, my longest day in school which means I am gonna miss quite alot on my lessons. I'm gonna miss my functions test. Sheesh. So I'll have to mug again and not waste time because my Promos Exams is just 24 days away. *pulls hair* So I think I am going to be MIA for awhile only so people dun miss me ok. I'm always available on the phone.

Poor Hubby. He had fever and I cant be there for him. Take extra care of yourself darling and rest as much as you need. I miss you so much. Lurve you sangat2 too. Muackies!

Labels: Bimbotic you.

Time never waits for anything right? I just wonder where half of the time have gone to by the time I retire to bed. But I dont regret spending my time like that. Hey I get qualities so great so why should I ever regret kan?

Ok enough yada-yada. Serious business. I've given myself only 15 mins to do this post so here goes. I really start my day early today which kinda surprises me actually. Firstly because itz a weekend and secondly I'm usually just plain lazy. So I guess due to that it is not even afternoon yet. Haha. It feels so great to not rush over things. So went cycling with my bro mok and sis fatty. Hahakz! I'm the only 'slim' one in the family. Like literally ok. Trust me. Haha. So came back after we were tired out and watched Princess Diaries 2 while eating my all time favourite Bihun Goreng!! Yummy sangat2. So we slacked as a family before they went out to get the stuffs from the other house.

Oh yeah. I think my dad is gonna get me a new phone. Wee~ Nothing like the one I wanted but a new phone is always welcome anytime. And talking about it, does it have any memory card? Sheesh. I totally forgot about that. Nevermind. I'll await patiently.

So school is totally killing me but on the other hand, I lurve it to pieces. And did I mention I bought a new fantastic bag that is so gonna kill everyone else? Itz nothing like great or what but it just gives me the nice feeling that I just couldnt wait to go to school tmr! So I have to catch up on quite alot, especially that doomed subject maths. GRR.

Hubby I lurve you sangat2. No matter what I'll be behind you encouraging you forward and I promise you that I will change that bad habit of yours. Even if it takes me my whole life. Lurve you! Muackies!!

Labels: Ramdom ramblings

My butt is still sore from the jab yesterday. For those who din know what happened and cared enough to know what was wrong, I'll mention it in a short while. For those who happened to read and was curious to know well just read on ok. Yesterday, after having my PE lesson and eating a plate of not-so-delicious cream cheese pasta with spaghetti or whatever it is called, I had this very bad ache on the left side of my stomach. It was agony cuz I also happened to have my first day of menses and if you knew me well enough my first day usually are accompanied by menses cramp. I din know what was happening to me. I had vomitted twice and after the second round I suddenly had this very very bad headache. Then the pain. It was more than I could handle and I think I dropped down on my fours because I really could not walk anymore. It was unexplainable. The pain I mean. So there was I crying my heart out and looking so not pretty. Actually I did not care. Not yet really. So they managed to get me on the wheelchair that appeared out of nowhere and wheeled me to the sick bay. Over there, the pain was really very bad and then of all things my friends started to cry. So I was feeling kinda overwhelmed that they cared so much for me but at the same time I wanted them to be strong for me because I knew I couldnt take it on my own. Then came some makciks. They started praying for me and I swear I thought I was going to die. It was something I never experienced before and I admit, I was scared out of my wits. Then I think the ambulance came and I was more or less a lil comforted to know some proffesionals were on hand to help me in case I really did die or something. They got me on oxygen and I was suprised I did not faint yet because it was really painful. Then I was on the ambulance and in there was when it really mattered that I wasnt looking nice. Haha! One of the medics wiped away my tears whenever I cried!! And did I mention that he talked nicely, almost lovingly towards me? Haha! Yeah whatever. So when I was in the hospital I heard the nurse said I got the handsome boy and I was like "Oh gosh this is bad!" in my heart. GRR! Then the usual hospital thingy. I waited for a totally of 2 hours before a doctor finally managed to see me. That 2 hours din pass without me scolding some stupid nurses who cant even locate my belongings and also did not know if someone is outside waiting for me. I mean, WTH. This is so not cool. So even then they could not determine what exactly I have but I was suspected of having kidney stones, which the doc says was very painful and he was surprised that I managed to hold on without passing out yet. I just smiled sarcastically really. Then I'm discharged with an appointment next week.

I want to mention the names of my friends who were there for me: Amirah, Aini, Ria, Fathona, Raihanah, Hafiz, Izyan, Sharifah, Anwar, Muna. Thanks for being there for me and holding me tight. Without you people I wouldnt be able to hold on that way. There is no words to describe how I appreciate everything you guys did. Thanks alot. Lurve korang sangat2.

To my darling Hubby, thanks for being strong for me. You are one of the reasons I managed to come unharmed. Thanks so much. I lurve you and nothing can ever separate us without our consent. Lurve you sangat2.

To my family, I always knew you would never leave me alone. You are yet another reason I hanged on. Sweet lurve.

To my God. Thanks for giving me the chance to repent. I believe you knew what I am going to say. Please continue guiding me and showing me the right way. I know I could always lean on you for my support, even if I'm all alone in this world.

To my mama, I knew you are looking at me from up above there. I miss you so much but I would never erase our moments together. Your care and love for me I would always cherish. I lurve you forever.

Labels: A dedication to all my loved ones.

The Bottom Line
You're usually a great source of fun for your people, and today that's doubly true!

In Detail
You're usually a great source of fun for your people, and today that is especially true! The stars have sent you some positive, relaxed energy that is enabling you to not take things too seriously. Any bad news that arrives today won't sting too badly, because you realize how many wonderful things you have in your life. This is a good day for taking a big emotional risk, because even if you're rejected, you'll be able to see things in the right perspective.

How sweet could life get? At least I dont make people cry. That is the best. Wee~ I'm waiting for thank you(s) friends. Haha. I'm feeling so appreciative of life right now, because I'm not feeling as stressed up as I did in the past. I also do not have as much assignments to complete and I got ample time to do some so-needed revision and catching up. But I'm still not doing quite as well as I should if I want to get promoted in Mathematics. I guess things like blogging and surfing and going-outs have to be restricted. Hmm. To be exact, I dont really mind sacrificing all that. But for how long I am able to sustain in the big real question here.

Anyways, that hottstuff of mine is really so cute I get irritated sometimes. I would forever remember last Tuesday's P.E. lesson. OMG. He is like physically right in front of me. And wasnt I embarrassed because I was doing a presentation on my group's activity and he have to be there to look plus listen to ME. Ok I'm excited like mad but feeling so malu sangat2. ARGH!! He is forever cute people. No one would ever get me as jittery as he could. Oh his eyelashes... His pants, which is a source of annoyance for most of my friends. But that is what makes him, him. You know what I mean? And oh yeah. He have compressed voice. HAHA!! "Ehh botak!" I'll remember that like always. Oh gosh! It so doesnt fit him. Those who is reading this try holding your nose and say that phrase. Haha! Similar larh.

I'll update later2 larh. Lazy sangat2. Muackies people!

Labels: Enjoys.

Shits. I know you are super-duperly mad at me. It was one of those things I kept doing to you right? But it wasnt intentional. At least I thought it wasnt. I thought I knew you enough to decide things for the both of us, but evidently, I was wrong. I didnt know what you have went through the past few days of course. I thought it was just any normal army days for you. I guess I was too engrossed in my own life to bother about you. I dont know what am I supposed to do now. Saying sorry is out of the question I guess. You wont meet me. You wont talk to me. Trust me, I've experienced enough to feel your anger, your disappointment. But by doing this it wont be able to help either any of us. I tried my best to pick up from where I fell and prepared myself to give you the best of me, but you just wouldnt give me the chance. Egoistic you could be, I swallowed my dislikes. My patience level has maximised, I think I've done enough to let you know about that. Please stop acting like some kid. I told you, I realised my mistakes. I know Nothing can correct what I did. I could never turn back those lost times but I could try to make it up to you in the future. You accused me of not being the same girl as I am. But you wouldnt let me be the same. Just what am I suppose to be then? Our love for each other is not a compromise; I dont have to be the girl that you want me to be. If you are not feeling secure enough about our relationship, then by all means do something about it. As far as I am concern, I have been truthful to you, faithfully sticking up by your side. Loving you is as normal as breathing for me. Please Hubby dont let it all go. Sometimes I wish my thoughts were a megaphone, so that you would know how many times I prayed for your well-being, praised you with honeyed words. Maybe then would you believe me. This has been our longest fight. And our most childish. I thought being far from each other would strenghten our relationship. I do not want to waste my time missing you during your 1 week away from me. I need you by my side. I want you to pamper me like you used to do. I want you to continue calling me Honey. I want your hugs that will make me feel so safe. I want you to love me like no one ever could. Dont let me go my dear.

Watching Legally Blonde 2 right now. I admire the character Elle Woods played by Reese Witherspoon. She doesnt care what others think of her, as long as she gets what she thinks is right. She will go through all extremes to get it done. That is so cool.

Get to talk to Hubby just now. Even though we did not get to meet. Sheesh. He was tired. So practically we only talked for a few hours. He spend the afternoon catching up on sleep. He is going back to the jungle tomorrow and might be coming home only on Tuesday. GRR. And I thought he is coming home for good, at least not going back to the jungle. I hate it larh.

So tomorrow is school again. It will be a rush, I know. Because school is only on Monday and Tuesday for this week. We are gonna miss a few lessons, especially Maths. Woah. I am so gonna look forward for some make-up lessons. URGH. But on a brighter note, I can get to see hottstuff. *smiles widely* That is the only best thing I really look forward to in every new week of school. Even though sometimes I realise that I am just dreaming big time. Like building sandcastles in the air. But I read somewhere that it is fine to build sandcastles in the air. I just have to add the foundation. Haha! So dont be surprise people if something more than normal happens. *grins*

So anyways, Wan recommended me to work at his place. Its this Pizza Hut call centre or something like that. Mira and Aini used to work there. From them, it is quite a hard work. From Wan, it is up to you on how you want it to be. So I'm confused. I need money. But I dont think I am ready to give up my time I devote to school for work. But then again, no hard work means no gain. Oh gosh I just dont know. I forgot to tell Hubby. I'll mention it to him later.

Lurve ya'll. Take care. Muackies!!

Labels: lurve is in the air

Check all these things. I loike sangat2!!

You Are 71% Indie

You're a very indie person, and admit it, you look down a little on people who strive to be normal.You'll indulge in a little mainstream pop culture every now and then. But for you, anything not indie is a guilty pleasure!

You Are A Little Snobby

And being a little snobby every once and a while is totally allowed.Because if no one was ever snobby, no one would ever try to dress up or look pretty.And while you do enjoy the finest things in life (that you can afford), you tire of superficiality.You know there's more to life than what's just on the surface.

What People Think of Your Mouth

People see you as both flirtatious and intimidating.Your friends are secretly put off by your seductive powers.And strangers either fear you or obsess over you - sometimes both.No way to fight it - you're a natural vamp. Or rake.

What Your Green Outfit Means

Having a unique style of dress is quite important to you.You're a bit of an oddball, but you're also very friendly.No worries - people find your eccentricities charming! Designer match: Diane Von Furstenberg Signature accessory: A vintage purse

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion.You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness.You're generally good at balancing work and play.When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have medium agreeableness.You're generally a friendly and trusting person.But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.You get along well with others, as long as they play fair. Neuroticism: You have low neuroticism.You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is medium.You are generally broad minded when it come to new things.But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it.You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

You Make a Great First Impression

You can handle almost any social situation with grace, even the tricky ones. Strangers often find you charming and interesting. You are often remembered fondly. Even if you're not naturally outgoing, you can make conversation with anyone if you need to. Whether you were born this way or had to work to get here, you are definitely charismatic. You're popular and well liked. People definitely look forward to being around you. Your social connections bring you a full and rich life. You understand how important it is to make a lasting impression.

You Are An INTJ

The Scientist You have a head for ideas - and you are good at improving systems.Logical and strategic, you prefer for everything in your life to be organized.You tend to be a bit skeptical. You're both critical of yourself and of others.Independent and stubborn, you tend to only befriend those who are a lot like you. In love, you are always striving to improve your relationship.You have strong ideas of what love should be like. At work, you excel in figuring out difficult tasks. People think of you as "the brain."You would make an excellent scientist, engineer, or programmer. How you see yourself: Reasonable, knowledgeable, and competent When other people don't get you, they see you as: Aloof, controlling, and insensitive

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are calm and rational person with a good deal of balance in your life.Friends consider you to be kind, caring, and truly loyal.You are easy going and trusting. However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.Open to the world, you are not afraid to be yourself. If you don't get enough sleep, you are: Able to cope It's hard to sleep next to you because: You're a bed hog

One Saturday is nearly over. Well, I couldnt even enjoy it properly. Sheesh. And I havent get any work done, forget about revising. I was missing Hubby badly today. I'm not really sure when he is going back from the jungle. I tried calling him alot times today but couldnt get through. I guess the reception is pretty bad, or his battery is real flat. Hmm. I wish he is back early and nice. I really miss you so much Hubby. Sayang you sangat2.

Awang Belanga is coming on soon. 2 weeks from now. And me and my gerls were like kiasu-ness. We decided to take one whole long row, and to complete that we need some friends to come along too. Haha. I intended to get my Hubby to come along too. So there is someone to accompany me home. Or maybe we could stay up the whole night somewhere. Just to rectify the time we lost when he is in the jungle. I will be sure doing that. I got loads to tell him.

Anyways. There are some family matters that I wont be looking forward to fully. Haiz. But it is going to last me throughout my whole life. Sheesh. I've got to be strong, and held my head high up in the air. Now the competition is going to get a lil bit tougher.

I lurve all you people truckloads aite! Muackies!!

Labels: Ramdom ramblings

I'm in a desperate need right now. For almost everything that matters. It is just weird how lost you feel when you do not have sufficient or satisfactory things that you want, need or desire. For right now, I'm seriously considering working because I really need money. The money factor is never a choice because you still need it. I mean, you could never not want any money right? Living in a First World country really has some drawbacks. I wish, I wish, I wish with all my might that I have the energy to work, so that I have sufficient money to support myself. But I knew I could never be able to balance my schoolwork if I work. I'll just have to save more.

The next thing I need is a better brain. Haah. As now the donating of an organ is the topic of the month, I wish someone like Einstein would want to donate their brains to me. If only that is possible. Really, dont you wonder what is going on inside his brain? His thoughts, his ideas. It is just curious how some people can think as wonderfully as that, yet others could never achieve that kind of standard. My promo exams is just like less than 5 weeks away. I dread thinking it is one day nearer every day.

Time. I wish I had 48 hours in a day. Then maybe I would be able to complete everything diligently. I could school, work, play, exercise, sleep and still have more than enough time to waste. Or rather do something intelligent. But that is impossible I think. Of course! Duh-ness!

And I totally need my Hubby at times like this. I want his hug. His insightful replies. His motivations. I need his guidance. I lurve you Hubby. Miss you sangat2. Muackies!

Anyways. On the brighter side, weekends are here again. *celebrates* Haha! Lucky us this week we dont have much to do. And then the National Day holidays! Woohoo! I think I like wanna rest like nobody's business. And reflect on myself in every single aspect. I need that. Yeah and hottstuff is like making it obvious too that he know I like him. Dumbass larh him. And he is like sitting so near me on like 2 separate days this week. Oh gosh. He really is so cute larh. Especially when he smiles and laughs. I go absolutely weak in the knees and just feel like floating in the air. Haha!

So today as usual me and my gerls had a few laughs. Haha! Mira did this laughing thing during the boring Maths class. She did the "Nyahahaha" laugh. And she did exactly resembling a horse. Haha! Then Aini did the "Wakakakaka" laugh. It was kinda funny really. And oh yeah. The day before we went JP because it was Echa's last day with us. So the usual gerls plus Mehru, Razzak, Fuad and Hafiz Yusof had a meal with her. And we sure did enjoy ourselves. We joked and laughed and pained our stomachs because it went cramped. We spend like so much time there laughing and doing nothing else except eating and drinking. It was fun. Fuad's monkey face is so unforgettable. Haha! I should take a picture of it. And I din know Echa couldnt say the word 'tengkorak'. She would pronounce it as 'kentorak'. And we were laughing madly again. Haha! It was fun. Take care of urself aite Echa. I'm glad I got close to you before you went off, even if it is only for a short period of time.

Anyways till the next time. Lurve ya'll loads!!

Labels: reflections

This is crazy. Never, throughout my whole life, I woke up in the wee of the morning just to complete my assignments. But I have good reasons for that. My bro have to complete his project, which I suppose he have to hand in the next schooling day, namely today. I gave him the benefit of the doubt and being the dear sister that I am, just let him use the laptop. I was also quite tired last night, so I decided to rest for awhile. And again, I have to make myself a complete nuisance to Mira for asking her to print my assignments. Plus, I cant hand it to her last night because I havent complete it. So she have to do the tedious job of doing it in the morning. So sorry yet again Mira..

After this stoopid Penulisan Kreatif shit, I hope there is nothing else that will add to my burden at the moment. I just want to have a normal piece of school life. This school is too abnormal for words. They are freaking me out. What with PE run like boot camp. Attendance taken like you are in the army. Sheesh.

And I need to get a new bag. I just realise that my bag is too small for school even for my shortest day in school. Haha! And I'm like wasting money buying the padlock for my locker since I did not use it. Ok. I'm so gonna make full use of it by stocking up on tidbits. And maybe putting a file or two. And a jacket. And my calculator. And alot of things ok. Just remind me classmates that I got locker ok. Thanks alot.

Hubby is in a jungle somewhere. Boohoo! Its like I cant talk to him for 1 week except for occasional sms-es. *cries heart out* I seriously dont see the purpose of staying in a jungle for so long. Are you people sick or what? I totally agree with Farhan seh. He said the army is destroying relationship left, right and centre. *nods head* So much for that fella from the SAF talk saying army strengthen relationships. It does but the endurance is sometimes to hard to handle ok. GRR. I hope he will lose some weight. Then I'll be motivated to lose some weight too. =) Lurve Hubby sangat2. Muackies!!

Anyways, that shit of my hottstuff is so &#^%#^!! Cool down princess.. Oh he is such an egoistic fool. Sometimes he makes me puke. Most of the time he makes me melt. So yeah because of that I'll go gugu-gaga. HMPH!! He better stop being perasaan. It is true only to a certain extent that I like you ok. Because I ALREADY HAVE A BOYFRIEND. Maybe I should go around pasting my Hubby's photo big and clear on my forehead, or better still hire that Jendol that Aini hates so it will be better. Haha! Maybe she needs extra money to go for some plastic surgery to err.. beautify herself. I think I should propose that idea to her. Hmm..

Anyways. It is only 5.15am. Still another 15 more minutes before usual wakey-wakey. So I better send the file to Mira now. Lurve you all sangat2. Muackies!!

Labels: bitchiness.