The Bottom Line
Confusing memories will put a big crimp in your style today, so take things slow.

In Detail
Confusing memories will put a big crimp in your style today, when some stuff you remember happening a certain way will be proven to have happened in a totally different way. This revelation won't be embarrassing, but it will be enlightening. Take it as a lesson in perspective, and as an invitation to take a more mature stance on your life. The haze of reflection can distort your understanding of how people behave in different circumstances, so keep an open mind.

I am feeling so bummed today. Why? Because of the straight nearly 5 hours sitting at school preparing for the HK trip. For the first 1 hour, we were actually waiting for those latecomers to come and trying out the costumes. Trust me, some people are wayy choosier than me. They either dont want it too tight or too loose. They want it just nice. Like if its theirs I wouldnt have bothered. But since its tailored to my measurements, I dont think anyone else fits perfectly larh. And when its nearly done, we have to sit through all the presentations, and well, its pretty boring. So yeah. We still have alot to do. We have to take note that we are presenting to an absolutely different group of audience. I cant believe the simplest terms they wont be able to understand. I wonder how am I going to communicate with my buddy larh, whoever she/he is. I just found out too that they are going to stay with us in the hostel. I hope somebody I'm comfortable with is together with me, or else I'll die of boredom. Aside from that, I hope the HKongers are able to appreciate what we have put in labouriously for them; especially the fashion parade. Trust me, it is hard work trying to get 20 unexperienced people to model costumes for you. But whatever it is, it is still fun larh watching them doing their funny poses. Hahakz!

At last, I managed to talk to boyfriend just now. Gosh I damn missed him larh. He is feeling tired right now, so I'm being a little kind to let him rest for awhile. He didnt pick up my calls when I called him again, so I'm taking the benefit of the doubt that he is sleeping. Poor darling. I lurve you sangat2. Muackies!!

Remind me, I need to get alot of stuffs before I go over to HK. I have to buy new bottles of shampoo, body foam, lotion, mosturizer and whatever else I need. Haiz. I'm so bad at packing. So I guess I'll have to start writing a to-bring list before I forget anything. One thing for sure I will not forget is food uh. I'll need to buy packets of maggi and more packets of milos, hot chocolates, nestum and anything else I can get my hands on. Darling friends, let's exchange okey. Hehe! Cant wait larh to hang out together with Darling HamHam and Aini. Wee~~ Prepare for awesome pictures taken as a memory of us going there.

I'm feeling like I'm missing something in life. I dont know what it is. I searched more than I could. I still couldnt find it. At this point of life, I thought I had everything. Yes I am grateful with what I have. So what is missing. I've still got missing jigsaw puzzles pieces that I will never find I guess. Some moments, I feel like there is a hole in me, and as the minutes passed by, it is enlarging. I wanna relax, and enjoy my time with all my loved ones. I guess I still have alot to please, and alot to achieve.

Labels: life.

The Bottom Line
Things are heating up in one of your relationships -- work hard for a compromise.

In Detail
Anger can be a tricky emotion -- sure, it can get someone's attention, but it can also push them away. Nevertheless, it is a legitimate emotion and it's one that you need to get more comfortable with. So if something or someone ticks you off today, do not suppress how you feel! Express your anger in a clear, calm way -- and don't concern yourself with how your words might sound. Often, just getting it out into the world helps it go away. Expression is necessary to happiness.

Had a great day shopping with darling HamHam today. She wanted to go Beach Rd so we headed there. The train ride was really tiring larh. We practically stood all the way there. My feet were aching before anything. So we had our lunch first. And trust me I think we chose the wrong shop. It was practically salty larh. Its a damn waste of time and lucky us, we chose the right sugarcane juice thanks to darling Ria. Wee~~ So we jalan2 over there but I find nothing interesting enough to buy uh. HamHam wanted to buy some clothes I think but the shop is close or something. So we decided to head to Tampines Mall to buy the Fox sweater HamHam saw. She said it was on the other side, but when we were walking, she suddenly jump and she scared me larh. Actually she got the wrong shop, its Fox Kids sweaters that she saw. Hahakz! Talk about confusion. So we went to the Men and Women but we couldnt get our size larh. So we decided to walk around first. We went to Century Square and ended up buying a pair of shoe each. The sales assistant is so nice to us sehh. I dont mind going there again, seriously. She got the wrong shoe code initially, and she found out and was being so nice and friendly to us. Haah! I lurve her larh.. So before anything we had our dinner at Mac, and went home taking 168. And at last, home sweet home.

Time really flies. Its exactly one week before we are going to HK. And tomorrow we have a full-dress rehearsal. I'm scared for tomorrow larh. Cuz last minute yesterday Hidayah said her laptop crushed together with the vid she is doing plus the back ups. I was nearly crying larh. I'm totally feeling so not prepared okey. And the thing is I'm slow at all this, especially doing a vid; its my first time, so pardon me. I guess I'll have to tell Ms Jee in advance. Gosh being a leader sucks especially when you have to face all this first. Argh!

Anyways, I'm missing boyfriend sangat2. I havent met him for nearly 3 weeks larh. Damn. And since morning, I've yet to call him. Tu larh semalam merajuk tknk call konon. Ugh! I wanna hear your voice boyfriend. I wanna hug you and be lost in your hugs. Boohoo. I really miss you. Lurve you sangat2 sayang.

Labels: great day.

Oh I'm so beginning to hate this girl. She really got the guts to even add me on Friendster. Dumb ass. Go dump yourself in the garbage. I mean, okey its already too much when she send sweet-sugar-coated comments to MY boyfriend, she have to add me! Get this straight. And she can gimme a comment, that she is FIFI'S ex. Damn her. And the stoopid thing about all this is that I, PRINCESSzati, is feeling inferior towards her. ARGH!! What the hell is happening to me? She doesnt even deserve my attention, let alone my anger towards her. And now, I'm having sort of a cold war with MY boyfriend, because of her stinking shit. He is oh-so-defending-her kinda thing right now. WTH! What am I to you, damnit? That we have to fight because of her? Yeah I dont like her. So? Dont tell me you like every single one of my friends? So I hate 2 of your friends right now. I have every reason to hate them okey. Blardy hell its definitely not my emotion's nor my fault. Ohh she misses you. So you have to meet her? What about me? My missed feelings for you all doesnt count huh? Suddenly, when she appeared, I'm the last priority in your life?! You can msg her all you like, keep pictures of other girls in your hp which you declared are actually your sister's friends and I have to keep my mouth shut? Ehh, get your blardy idea right larh. I have nothing better to do right now. Gimme just one reason, a tiny teensy one would be enough, for me to confront her, and say I dont ever want her or you to contact each other anymore. Call this jealousy, I dont give a damn. You better choose, its either I tell her or you tell her. Dont let the rough side of my tongue surfaced after so long. She better removed you under her featured friend if its true she had a damn boyfriend. Its not my fault if her boyfriend gave her fractured arms and a broken nose, she doesnt have to turn to MY boyfriend for comfort. That belongs to me, you understand? I am capable of doing much more, even giving her more fractured bones. This is not an empty threat, believe me.

Labels: BITCH YOU.

Fuad aka GG and Moi

Me and Darling Gerls!!

The guys

The Guys and one GG

Prettyy ladies!!

pretty ladies again.

Us at Fafa's

Candid One.

Candid Two.

Labels: camwhored.

The Bottom Line
Seeing someone from your past will trigger some unexpectedly warm feelings today.

In Detail
It is only natural that a past relationship would enter your mind as you embark upon a new one -- the similarities and the contrasts are just as striking. But are you letting the past cast too heavy a shadow over your present? You have to see this person for who they are, not for who they are not. Your role in a partnership is something you have to be willing to adjust right now. To keep things progressing, you might have to start being more forceful than you usually are.

Went to school just now for the HK meeting. Alot was to be done and decided. Well it was actually quite tiring believe it or not. Everyone had a say, and there is definitely no way of pleasing everybody. The initial idea was to have only a few to participate, but I guess the idea of wearing an ethnic costume appeals to the others, so it turns out everybody is wearing a costume or another. I choose to wear Pavadhi. Hehe! It is my own, so I feel more comfortable wearing it. I guess everyone will look pretty and beautiful and handsome on that day. Haha! I cant wait to model it out actually. So now my group have to complete quite a number of things to complete, like doing an engaging powerpoint slides and a nice video. Haiz. So next week is gonna be quite busy, meeting up on most days and completing undone works. I hope its gonna be worth it larh. Anyways, going to HK for 12 days will sure make me miss all my loved ones here, especially my family, boyfriend and closest friends. I wish I can bring everyone along with me, make it a loved one's trip.

As expected, I couldnt get to meet boyfriend. He had to collect his cert with a friend, and tomorrow I'm not able to meet him, because he's going out with his army mates. Well, that only leaves me with next weekend to meet him. Only thing is, I dunno whether I got ample time to meet him. Its gonna be a busy week. Haiz.. Just my luck.

HamHam and Aini each told me of their experiences during the camp. It sound like fun, and I laughed at the Saturday Night Fever event. Haha! I wish I was there to see it. I swear I wont make him forget about it. Hahakz! I hope next year would be my turn. *cross fingers*

Tomorrow there will be a briefing for the parents. I'm feeling so damn lazy uh actually to go. Whatever. I dont even know if my parents can attend. Then we might be going to Fafa's open house if most of my friends can make it. I'm so looking forward to food larh seh.. Hahakz!

Labels: random-ness.

This is kinda lame, but I changed my blog fonts after my previous post. And I know I wont rest until I post another post just to see how nice it looks. Haha!

Okey I'm actually doing something I hardly do; bloghopping. I managed to find lotsa old school mates, and hey, I realised I missed them. Though I dont really hang out with them often, there are some memories that will never leave me. This is getting a little too drama-mama for me, but I guess I missed korang2 badly. Without all of you in my life, I can never be what I am today. Yeah I'm never proud of my life in my secondary school, but I'm sure proud to be able to find great friends like all of you. I missed Sembwinds, I missed my lil sister. It has been ages since I've last met you. Don't you missed me too? I wanna meet up soon, if that is possible. I guess it has been my fault. I was too busy with my current life to catch up with anyone from my previous school, or anyone in my life at all. I guess if only my bestfriend were not in the same school as me, I would have fade away from her too. Its time I use my holidays to catch up on one of the most important things in my life.

Now it makes me wonder. Just how I would feel if someone I dearly loved would never come back to me. Life has taught me alot, and I knew how vulnerable it can get. You just never know what is going to happen the next moment. I wanna cherish everyone around me. Even though it would take me ages, I would wanna do that.

Labels: lurve is in the air

The Bottom Line
Your energy level will be unpredictable today. Eating healthy will help you cope.

Labels: MMOB

Dear Her.
I know you're well informed that like you read my blog, I read yours too. I'm gonna use this medium to let you know some of the things that I think has become my responsibility to let you know. Whether you understand it or not, I leave it to you.

If you ever listen to someone, listen with the most sincerity. There are none other that people look forward to than sincere listeners. As for me, truly I never bothered if one could help me out in a 'I talk you listen' procedure. Yes it is true you could help the person by making the person feel lighter after expressing the problems faced. It is never complete to listen, when you are not sincere enough.

If I may, I believe I am the 'stranger' you mentioned; someone you stupidly trust. Let me hereby declare I'm not a stranger. If you think I am, then I would have done and said much more than you deserved. I never regarded you as just another stranger in my life. I wont bother to make you realised things if I thought that you're a stranger. Cuz I dont love strangers. I dont share anything in my life with strangers. I'm an extreme person. By now I believe you would have known that.

You mentioned that you dont really belong in the house. You dont really blame someone for that. So who do you blame? I suggest you blame yourself. The thing about blaming yourself is that you will see things in a different light. If you want to remain optimistic, you want to remain cheerful, you blame yourself firstly and foremost. After that things will go your way, because nobody in their right mind would wanna keep blaming themselves. You are your own worst enemy. You will work for something that you think deserves a change in your life, and nobody other than yourself can make you really work your ass off for that. The house that you're staying in, its never really my home. Its just somewhere I return to because I'm obliged to do it. But the thing about myself is, I always wanna leave my touch wherever I go. I'm too headstrong, I want things done my way. That was why my room spells of me, not anywhere else in the house.

You mentioned that year 2007 has taught you alot. It has taught me alot too. All that family problems you have, I'm facing it too. In fact, I face more than you do, because I'm a little older than you and have to give it more thoughts than usual.

I am the way I am because I choose it. I choose to be strong. I choose to be independent. And my dear I choose to make the choices that I've made. I never once regretted it. If I do, I'll regret living. I know the difference between my choices and fate. I accept both willingly. I might appear deaf, blind and mute at times. But even when I'm sleeping, my senses are wide awake. Know me, I promise you will never regret it. I've asked alot of people on their opinions about me, and I know what impacts and effects I have on different people. You will never see a same me every single moment. You will never know my next behaviour. I admit, the most difficult part about me is that I'm unpredictable. I got my four seasons. You knew too well I could never be perfect. I dont even want to be. It would take the fun out of everything I do.

Dont sympathise with your own self. It only makes you weaker and will develop a sense of scorn from others. Dont ask questions, instead seek to find the answer. Sometimes, there is an answer to no questions. There is a reason as to why reasons occur. There is a reason why God choose me for you, someone who is older, and even looks like you. Ponder on it. I expect changes the next time I see you. And since you know respect begets respect, start respecting me. Start with courtesy. I'll continue the rest for you. I promise.

PS: This post is in blue because you like the colour. =]

Labels: I love you.

My stomach cramps is so killing me. And I got absolutely no strength to go to the shop and buy Panadol Menstrual. Argh! I just feel like lying down and do nothing today. I'm even feeling lazy to collect my newly-done passport. =] Its not just laziness you know. Its all because of this stoopid cramps that I got every month. Guys, better thank your lucky stars that you are born a genuine guy. Yeah its a whole lot better being a girl at anytime of the day, but when it comes to this kinda thing, it totally sucks. I still have yet a looooooooonnnnnngggggg time to go before I'm 40 or 50 which is when my mentrual will stop. Imagine having to live with this nearly throughout your life? Its agony okey. Especially if your cramps are so unmerciful on you. Damn.

Usually I'll feed boyfriend's ear with my complains whenever I experience this. Haha! But I still havent call him. And I still have pity on him. I'll wait until afternoon or something before I start wailing my pathetic voice to him. Haha! Poor boyfriend. Anyways, he usually makes me feel better, no matter what. He's like got this wonderful magic. I just have to explain that I'm having my period and all of a sudden he is so understanding. My moodswings, my craziness, my temper, everything. He would understand perfectly. He would just blame it on the period. After all that he would heave a sigh of relieve that it is over and he wont have to handle me in that kinda mood anymore. I so lurve him..

Okey, I'm so missing all my friends larh. Nearly all of them went for the leadership camp which I cant attend because I'm gonna be a retainee. Well, I am a retainee technically. So its like I have to wait for end of next year, which then I'm so gonna move up to second year. They are gonna have fun I hope. Haha! Miss korang sangat2 larh. Lurve ya'll!!

Damn I'm having flu on top of my cramps. It definitely does not feel good. For those who dont know, I cant stand pains. I'm a weakling. Really. That is why you dont really ever see me so clumsy and hurting myself. I avoid pains at all risks. Haha! If I were to ever like break my bones or something, I dunno how I'll survive. Then sometime, I wonder what will happen if I ever get married, and got pregnant and have to deliver. Most or rather all mummys said it is a most painful procedure. I want a baby of my own, but I'm afraid I just cant like handle the pain.

Okey enough of all this. Its gonna be a long time ahead anyways. I think I will only get married at the age of 55 at the rate I'm going. Haha! Hey, lagi tua lagi orang nak. Haha! Anyways, until I got something valuable to write about. Cheers!

Labels: random-ness.

You know, being plainly bored really had this weird side effects on you. I swear it will; its happening to me right now. Eeeccks! You just cant stop thinking, and the thing about thinking is that it gets a little too.. wild. You know what I mean. Even at home, being surrounded by those people who loved you and whom you loved gives you suspicions that they dont like you. Like wth? I just cant wait to get out of this house, and go do something silly enough to sway myself away. I wanna laugh loudly that people around me have to go around giving me dirrty looks and stuffed their fingers into their ears. I wanna roll around in my pyjamas until it gets torn and stand up to catwalk for 10km. I really, really, really feel like doing that. For quite sometime, the days have been a little too perfect for me. Wake up, laze around, make my bed, eat breakfast, play xbox, surf the net, laze around again, etc. Imagine that? It has been happening for the last 3 or so 24 hrs. ARGH.

So right now, I managed to drag myself out of bed to bathe in the morning, a ritual I havent done in like days. I'm supposed to go out with darling friends, but I got something family to do. Oh I wanna go retail too. Like right now! But nothing beats shopping with your loved ones, so its best I wait for them. I wanna get boyfriend to go out with me. Heck with all our arguments, its high time we think about the two of us as a whole instead of just our selfish selves. Too bad, today is already a Sunday, which means even if I can coax him to go out with me, we wont be able to go out for long. He have to report back to camp by 10pm I think. Damnation. I've yet to give him his morning call which he will grumpily pick up because I've ruined his sleep. Haha! I lurve him so much.

I'm having weird ideas. Like how this blogger should be recording voices instead of us typing what we are thinking. That would be much sincere. Like my tone and everything. Wouldnt it be fun? Everyone can hear my real thoughts. Like how my "Haha!" sounds. Or HamHam's "Nyahahaha~" sounds. Oh I'm thinking of saving money to revamp my whole room too. I wanna get a pretty wallpaper of myself all around my room. Haha! Talk about shiok sendiri. I guess grandmama would get sick of me. At least she wont miss me right. Teehee!

I got nothing better to do right now. I dont even have the mood to help out in the kitchen. Let her do it. Whatever. Oh yeah, whenever you read about someone bitching about you, you are no better if you retort back. Nobody will bitch about you not unless you deserve it. Furthermore, you can never decide a person's opinion about you. You are who you are, and if you let someone ruin your day because you are silly enough to listen to their bitchings, well, you might as well deserve it. Slap her if you have to, then let it all be bygones. Another random advice from me, go on the road less travelled. Widen your experiences, and why not lead other people down the road instead of you following? Cheers!

Labels: Style. It is time everyone have a lil bit of that.

If your birthday is on the 1st day of the month:
You are very curious and dedicative. When you are interested in something, everything else has to wait. This is your quality. But if you learn to be more patient and complete what you have started, you will be successful in life.

Your Love:
You believe in love at first sight. You won't wait to learn more about the person. People who fail to impress you will hardly get a chance to be your friend. Your emotion is on the extreme. You can only love or hate, nothing in between and this often shows in your expression. Try not to end a relationship in a quarrel.

Gemini (22 May - 21 June)

Traditional Gemini Traits

• Adaptable and versatile
• Communicative and witty
• Intellectual and eloquent
• Youthful and lively
• Nervous and tense
• Superficial and inconsistent
• Cunning and inquisitive

Interests

Communications, computers, broadcasting, reading, writing, acting, talking, debating, playing music, speaking foreign languages

Hates
The same old routine

Suitable Careers
Journalist, broadcaster, commentator, travel agent, chauffeur, writer, linguist, secretary, commercial traveler, traveling salesman, postman, telephone operator, navigator

The Clothes You Wear
What others see from your style: You wear whatever you please, you are probably confident, stubborn, strong-minded and independent. Deep down, however, you think that you are being excluded from society. You wish you belonged, but as you don't, you're going to follow your own rules.

What your nightclothes reveal: You are friendly and always in good mood. You are candid and helpful, and can be sexy at times too.

What others see from your ties: You are kind and friendly. You are an uncomplicated person and enjoy exciting activities.

What others see from your belts: You are a kind of person who likes to hide your feelings. You may have a hot temper but tend to cover it with an outwardly calm and gentle demeanor. You are sensitive when it comes to love.

What others see from your shoes: You like to be the center of attention. You like to look good at all times and probably never leave the house without makeup on. Although you may be intelligent, you're also insecure about your looks. You care about others, and will always listen to what they have to say.

What others see from your earrings: You are a hardworking people. You are serious and capable. You know what you want out of life, and you go after it.

The last analysis: You are probably a romantic and passionate person. You are sensitive and lonely when you aren't in love. You can be somewhat self-centered, but you are honest and sincere to others. You like to make a good impression of yourself and worry about what others think of you.

The Bottom Line
Attending a family gathering will give you a fresher perspective on your life.

In Detail
Family problems are fading now, as the people you're related to are realizing that you are your own person. This elevated level of respect is starting to really gain momentum, and it's seeping into other areas of your life. Expect even your most judgmental friend to suddenly take a 'live and let live' attitude about what you choose to do in life. This is a new period of harmony with everyone you love, so enjoy it. It doesn't come around as often as you would like it to.

I wanna go out and enjoy myself. Not alone of course. Most of my friends are preparing themselves for their upcoming leadership camp. I'm not as selfish to snatch the time away from them. And boyfriend said he is not going out today. So I guess I have no choice, and go out alone. Got a few things to buy, and I really wanna go VivoCity. It has been sometime since I last went there.

I had a great time sleeping yesterday. This might sound weird, but after everything that happened, I guess its just how you choose to look at your life. If you want your life to be good, you have to feel good. Of course, there are always some downsides in your life; not everything is perfect everytime. And learn not to keep everything to yourself. It only hurts your own self, nobody else is affected by it. And I think it is high time we be fair to our own self. Whether you like that person or not, you just have to show it.

I feel like I'm having too much angst in me. I wanna let it all go, and be like what I used to be. I dont want anyone else to ruin my day for me. I guess I have learnt how to keep my mouth shut, but I think it is not too good for me. It gives me a headache to keep everything to myself. So people, just let it all out okey. It is good in the long run actually.

I am now supposed to be focus on the HK trip. But its kinda difficult to get everyone together now. Most of my group will be going to the leadership camp, and that leaves only three of us. Haiz. Take note, I'm doing a little change to accomodate to the limited time we have. It will be my head on the line if everything does not goes well. As far as possible, I want us to enjoy the trip. This is not some schoolwork that we have to. Yeah we have to work, but I want the fun to surface more.

Labels: Responsibility is Challenging.

Darn I hate that stoopid BIG brother of shamefully, mine. He puts stoopid administrator password on this laptop which is so definitely NOT his alone so that I cant even upload pictures from my camera to my profile which I regretfully have to admit is in this laptop. Now everything have to go through him first. Gosh I really hate him before, and I hate him now!! So I'm sorry my dear friends you have to wait longer for the pictures. I'm so gonna let him know he is not the boss of everything. STOOPID DUMB GIGANTIC FREAK OF AN ASSHOLE!!

So yesterday's Hari Raya outing with friends didnt end with a well not. Bcuz we realise we exceeded the limit and most of my friends do not have enough or rather more money to pay the driver. Sheesh! So we ended the charter at 9pm at Syirah's house. The first part is actually my fault. I din plan the pick ups properly so everything cock up. Yeah and the rest I can swear the its the driver's fault. He dont even know his roads larh sehh. So by the time we went to the North area which is actually mine and HamHam's house, more than half decided they have to go home. Most dont wanna miss the last bus or train. So those staying near our area decided to come along even though it is nearly midnight. Thanks korang2! So my house was the last house, and everyone was damn dead tired. But I must say I really enjoy the Mee Rebus at HamHam's house. Hehe! It was damn nice larh sehh. It has been sometime since I tasted Mee Rebus that nice. The last time was when a few months before my Mama passed away. That was more than a year ago.

I cant stand the sight of her. Damn. I think my emotions are getting a little too wild. I cant control everything, lest its happiness. Haha! That can grow crazy too I think. She is just so totally getting me on my thinning nerves. She would practically not sleep at night, but instead yak on the phone or surf the net. Then she would sleep in the wee hours of the morning and wake up near afternoon. And because of that my house is in an utter mess because I cant tidy it as there is this lump of a person snoring. And you should have seen the state of my room. Its not totally tidy, but if its messy its usually mine. So I dont really mind, as long as I know how to tidy it back. But she doesnt know. She will left everything lying around on the floor and as soon as I messed up something, either MY bed or MY table she would take the chance and add to messing it up. Sometimes, my hands feel like I want to throw everything that screams HER out of the windows. At other times, my hands tingle to give her a one tight slap. Maybe two. Ohh boy I'm generous with my slaps. She just needs to ask for it and I'll give it to her. She is so not cute, plus I hate it when people say we look similar. Even my boyfriend!! GRR. She doesnt look like me, cuz she aint a princess nor is she pretty or anything like me okey? DAMN! And the worse thing is she thinks I'm so-oh-afraid-of-her. I think its the other way around. She always says she is there to listen when I talk. Well hello of course. I'm like OLDER. I'm the KAKAK for goodness sake. And she, she expects me to listen to her third rate nonsense which is not even worth lending an ear. Its so nonsensical. She is too gatal for me, too act-cute for me, too URGH! for me.

Oh guess what, I've got assignments to do this holidays. What with the HK trip proposals and practice and whatever not, I still have yet to book a chalet. Yes. I'm so not in the mood already. The thing is, they dont appreciate it. Sometimes I just felt like throwing it down in their faces you know. So that they have just a lil taste of what I feel. Anyone would feel like I do, if your hard work doesnt pays off the way you want it to be. It sucks more if the people you do it for totally do not appreciate it. Worse still, if they dont help. Damn, if this is what it means to be the leader, I dont wanna be anymore. People are taking advantage. I have and sure do know my limits. Its so nearing the maximum line. To those who understand, this is a warning. And I expect you to spread it. I'll go at all costs if you want me to. But I expect you to give me just a small percentage as a return.

Boyfriend. Well, I've got nothing more to say. Simply because we hardly communicate. Yesterday was our month-sary. Hmm. Its the most mundane thing to ever happen at this period of time. It didnt even help us get more closer. Its too personal to let everyone read this. So I guess it will stay with me forever. Boyfriend dont even bother anymore. So why should I? I've said enough sorries, I've cried enough tears and I've admitted enough even though its not always my fault. I dont ever wanna spend my days and nights waiting for his never-coming msges or calls. It would be my fault if I didnt call him. But he is busy if he didnt call me. I guess he is beginning to regret knowing me. Maybe I changed.

Labels: fate-ing