Layer 1: On the outside
Name: Zati Alyani Binte Rosli
Birthday: 1st of June 1990
Current Status: Attached to my darling Hubby. Swit Lurve!
Eye Colour: Black I guess.
Hair Colour: Black/brown.

Layer 2: On the inside
My Heritage: Pure Malay
My Fear: I fear my own fear, which is fear. Get it?
My Weaknesses: My temperamental moments
My Perfect Pizza: Lotsa cheese and less of the bell peppers and pineapples.

Layer 3: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
My first thought of waking up: Its differs on different days.
My Bedtime: Erm. I'm an early sleeper.
My Most Missed Memories: With my late mama. I always lurve you mama!

Layer 4: My Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Neither. No gassy drinks for me.
Mc Donald or Burger King: McDonald always.
Single or Group Dates: Hmm. Both are fine.
Adidas or Nike: Nike.
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate. Duh!
Cappucino or Coffee: Neither. No caffeine for me either.

Layer 5: Do you
Smoke: Used to.
Curse: Yeah, especially is someone else deserves it.
Take Shower: Of course!
Have a Crush: Lotsa times. I've lost track.
Go to School: Couldnt imagine myself doing something else.
Believe in Yourself: Yeah, no one else would if you dont believe in yourself.
Think you're a Health Freak: No, I live both healthily and unhealthily as and whenever I feel like it.

Layer 6: In the Past
Drink Alcohol: No! Dont ever want to.
Gone to the Mall: Yeah. DUH!
Dyed my Hair: No. Thinking of highlighting it green tho.

Layer 7: Have you ever
Played a Stripping Game: WTH. No.
Change Who You Were To Fit In: No. Never.

Layer 8: Are you hoping to
Get married: Yeah..

Layer 9: In a Partner
Best Eye Colour: Brown. I think. Or green.
Best Hair Colour: The best that suits him.
Long or Short Hair: Hmm, a little of both.

Layer 10: What were you doing
A min ago: Doing this thing.
An hour ago: On the phone with darling Hubby.
A month ago: Slugging for promos, which I didnt do well.
A year ago: Slugging for O levels, which I did relatively well.

Layer 11: Finish The Sentence
I Love: My family, my friends and my darling Hubby! Lurve korang sangat2! Muackies!!
I Miss: My Mama.
I Hide: My ugly home specs whenever someone comes over.
I Need: My dose of ice lemon tea and a new life with the old friends and family and Hubby.

Layer 12: Tag 5 people
Munawarah.
Aini.
Mannan.
Hidayah.
Huda.

The Bottom Line
A friend offers some advice that you should listen to -- even if you don't want to.

In Detail
The friendships you have been enjoying the most in your life lately are the same friendships that are going to take you further in your life in the future. These people are your connection to new opportunities and have lots of good advice (that you should listen to!). Another thing you should listen to is that little voice inside your head that is telling you to review your budget and watch what you are spending. There's no need to worry, you just need to assess your accounts.

I got my promotion status just now. Well, I failed this time around. I just did not do well enough and there is definitely no point in being too sad about it. I was just plain disappointed. For once, I've failed my dad and my family. I knew he wouldnt say much and would always behind me supporting me in whatever I do, but still I dont ever want him to feel this kind of disappointment. This is so not something that I normally do. I want to prove myself wrong and do better the next time wrong. It is a lucky thing that I got a 2nd chance, only that I did not get the better part of the second chance. It sucks big time being in my position, but I'll just do better than ever if I choose to remain. Haiz. I got my great friends standing behind me waiting for me while I acted like shit crying and everything else. They were so patient, and they really deserve to move on. Congrats! I could look up to them and hell, now I got more reasons to pester them to teach me. Hahakz. They will always be my friends, and I hope I'm still theirs forever. From the horoscope above, I already knew the answer. And I want all of you to know that I will be with you guys until the end of time. I promise.

Hubby as usual managed to sober me down, and even got me laughing in no time. Lurve you sangat2 sayang! In those little words that I said to him, he managed to understand perfectly and did not rub the salt in. I know now that he will be here for me always, guiding me when I'm lost and holding my hands when I fall. Thanks sayang.

Labels: A dedication to all my loved ones.

Okey I had to do this. I was tagged by darling Fafalove. So herre it goes.

1. (the person who tagged you is) - Fafalove!!
2. (your relationship with her is) - moi classmate in skewl.
3. (5 impressions you have of her) - sweet; caring; bubbly; easy-going; friendly sangat2.
4. (the most memorable thing she has done for you) - erm. dunno ehh.
5. (the most memorable words she have said to you)- hello. awak. kita suka awak. awak bestlah[:
6. (if she becomes your lover, you will) - hug, kiss and dance with her.
7. (if she becomes your lover, things she has to improve on will be) - the way she looks at me. sometimes i get scared. teehee.
8. (if she becomes your enemy, you will) - cry out loud because I've a lost a great friend.
9. (if she becomes your enemy, the reason will be) - she is TOO much. which she isnt. wee~
10. (the most desirable thing you want to do for her now is) - be there for her whenever she needs me.
11. (your overall impression of her is) - she is a great girlfriend!
12. (how you think people around you will think about you) - erm.. bossy.. arrogant.. fierce..
13. (the characteristics you love about yourself are) - i love myself! to pieces!
14. (the characteristic you hate about yourself) - can I say my eyesight...?
15. (the most ideal person you want to be) - I've got her. MOISELF.
16. (the people that care and like you, say something to them) - I care and like and love you too! Muackies!
17. (pass this quiz to 7 people that you wish to know how they feel about you) - everyone in moi link. teehee.

Yesterday and today was spent baking. One of the only things that I daresay I'm actually good at. Wee~ It just took a lil bit of passion and love I think. I'm still not done with everything actually and there are still loads to do with the house. Spring-cleaning is SO not looked forward too. I hate cleaning. It makes my nose all itchy and tingling and I will keep sneezing and sneezing until my nose feels like it is coming off. UGH! But I like the after-it. My house looks and feels brand new. I Loike!

Got school tomorrow. I think the results are coming out too. Omg. I'm feeling so nervous about it. Plus not feeling good about it at all. I dearly wish tomorrow is not coming at all. But I'm so looking forward to meet all my friends! WEE! I missed them so much. It has been days since I laughed with them.

Oh for your info hunn, I got loads of friends. Who cared tons about me. No matter how bitchy I can get. I can only recall you having 2, the most, friends? Tough luck darling. And you dont need publicising. You are just looking forward to all these cheap advertisements about your slutty self. I guess it boosts your confidence up. Oh well. I cant blame a piece of shit like you for having that kinda luck.

I so wanna get new shoes. I think I'm going shopping tomorrow. Wee~ Had a job interview with Mira again after skewl. I wanna do some henna too. I saw it at Geylang Bazaar. And I wanna get my manicure and pedicure done too. Wanna look my best for my family and relatives and friends this Raya.

Cant wait to celebrate this Raya with Hubby. It will be more meaningful for the both of us because we missed each other like megatonnes. Even though he might not be able to spend much time with me I will endure and appreciate everything that he has done just for me. I lurve you sangat2 Hubby. Muackies!!

Dear Mama. I know you are still looking down at me. I want you to know that I still lurve you, and never has a day passed when I did not remember you. You will always be my strength and my reason to move on. I still miss you Mama. I cant wait to be with you again. I will never forget the feel of your lips on my cheeks when you kissed me goodnight. I will never forget the way you put your hands around me for comfort and safety whenever I needed you. I will never forget the aroma of your ever-delicious cooking. I miss you so much. Your dearest daughter.

Labels: A dedication to all my loved ones.

My butt is still sore from the jab yesterday. For those who din know what happened and cared enough to know what was wrong, I'll mention it in a short while. For those who happened to read and was curious to know well just read on ok. Yesterday, after having my PE lesson and eating a plate of not-so-delicious cream cheese pasta with spaghetti or whatever it is called, I had this very bad ache on the left side of my stomach. It was agony cuz I also happened to have my first day of menses and if you knew me well enough my first day usually are accompanied by menses cramp. I din know what was happening to me. I had vomitted twice and after the second round I suddenly had this very very bad headache. Then the pain. It was more than I could handle and I think I dropped down on my fours because I really could not walk anymore. It was unexplainable. The pain I mean. So there was I crying my heart out and looking so not pretty. Actually I did not care. Not yet really. So they managed to get me on the wheelchair that appeared out of nowhere and wheeled me to the sick bay. Over there, the pain was really very bad and then of all things my friends started to cry. So I was feeling kinda overwhelmed that they cared so much for me but at the same time I wanted them to be strong for me because I knew I couldnt take it on my own. Then came some makciks. They started praying for me and I swear I thought I was going to die. It was something I never experienced before and I admit, I was scared out of my wits. Then I think the ambulance came and I was more or less a lil comforted to know some proffesionals were on hand to help me in case I really did die or something. They got me on oxygen and I was suprised I did not faint yet because it was really painful. Then I was on the ambulance and in there was when it really mattered that I wasnt looking nice. Haha! One of the medics wiped away my tears whenever I cried!! And did I mention that he talked nicely, almost lovingly towards me? Haha! Yeah whatever. So when I was in the hospital I heard the nurse said I got the handsome boy and I was like "Oh gosh this is bad!" in my heart. GRR! Then the usual hospital thingy. I waited for a totally of 2 hours before a doctor finally managed to see me. That 2 hours din pass without me scolding some stupid nurses who cant even locate my belongings and also did not know if someone is outside waiting for me. I mean, WTH. This is so not cool. So even then they could not determine what exactly I have but I was suspected of having kidney stones, which the doc says was very painful and he was surprised that I managed to hold on without passing out yet. I just smiled sarcastically really. Then I'm discharged with an appointment next week.

I want to mention the names of my friends who were there for me: Amirah, Aini, Ria, Fathona, Raihanah, Hafiz, Izyan, Sharifah, Anwar, Muna. Thanks for being there for me and holding me tight. Without you people I wouldnt be able to hold on that way. There is no words to describe how I appreciate everything you guys did. Thanks alot. Lurve korang sangat2.

To my darling Hubby, thanks for being strong for me. You are one of the reasons I managed to come unharmed. Thanks so much. I lurve you and nothing can ever separate us without our consent. Lurve you sangat2.

To my family, I always knew you would never leave me alone. You are yet another reason I hanged on. Sweet lurve.

To my God. Thanks for giving me the chance to repent. I believe you knew what I am going to say. Please continue guiding me and showing me the right way. I know I could always lean on you for my support, even if I'm all alone in this world.

To my mama, I knew you are looking at me from up above there. I miss you so much but I would never erase our moments together. Your care and love for me I would always cherish. I lurve you forever.

Labels: A dedication to all my loved ones.