It is a shame I am your lover.

Friday, November 02, 2007, 7:00 PM

UGH!

Darn I hate that stoopid BIG brother of shamefully, mine. He puts stoopid administrator password on this laptop which is so definitely NOT his alone so that I cant even upload pictures from my camera to my profile which I regretfully have to admit is in this laptop. Now everything have to go through him first. Gosh I really hate him before, and I hate him now!! So I'm sorry my dear friends you have to wait longer for the pictures. I'm so gonna let him know he is not the boss of everything. STOOPID DUMB GIGANTIC FREAK OF AN ASSHOLE!!

So yesterday's Hari Raya outing with friends didnt end with a well not. Bcuz we realise we exceeded the limit and most of my friends do not have enough or rather more money to pay the driver. Sheesh! So we ended the charter at 9pm at Syirah's house. The first part is actually my fault. I din plan the pick ups properly so everything cock up. Yeah and the rest I can swear the its the driver's fault. He dont even know his roads larh sehh. So by the time we went to the North area which is actually mine and HamHam's house, more than half decided they have to go home. Most dont wanna miss the last bus or train. So those staying near our area decided to come along even though it is nearly midnight. Thanks korang2! So my house was the last house, and everyone was damn dead tired. But I must say I really enjoy the Mee Rebus at HamHam's house. Hehe! It was damn nice larh sehh. It has been sometime since I tasted Mee Rebus that nice. The last time was when a few months before my Mama passed away. That was more than a year ago.

I cant stand the sight of her. Damn. I think my emotions are getting a little too wild. I cant control everything, lest its happiness. Haha! That can grow crazy too I think. She is just so totally getting me on my thinning nerves. She would practically not sleep at night, but instead yak on the phone or surf the net. Then she would sleep in the wee hours of the morning and wake up near afternoon. And because of that my house is in an utter mess because I cant tidy it as there is this lump of a person snoring. And you should have seen the state of my room. Its not totally tidy, but if its messy its usually mine. So I dont really mind, as long as I know how to tidy it back. But she doesnt know. She will left everything lying around on the floor and as soon as I messed up something, either MY bed or MY table she would take the chance and add to messing it up. Sometimes, my hands feel like I want to throw everything that screams HER out of the windows. At other times, my hands tingle to give her a one tight slap. Maybe two. Ohh boy I'm generous with my slaps. She just needs to ask for it and I'll give it to her. She is so not cute, plus I hate it when people say we look similar. Even my boyfriend!! GRR. She doesnt look like me, cuz she aint a princess nor is she pretty or anything like me okey? DAMN! And the worse thing is she thinks I'm so-oh-afraid-of-her. I think its the other way around. She always says she is there to listen when I talk. Well hello of course. I'm like OLDER. I'm the KAKAK for goodness sake. And she, she expects me to listen to her third rate nonsense which is not even worth lending an ear. Its so nonsensical. She is too gatal for me, too act-cute for me, too URGH! for me.

Oh guess what, I've got assignments to do this holidays. What with the HK trip proposals and practice and whatever not, I still have yet to book a chalet. Yes. I'm so not in the mood already. The thing is, they dont appreciate it. Sometimes I just felt like throwing it down in their faces you know. So that they have just a lil taste of what I feel. Anyone would feel like I do, if your hard work doesnt pays off the way you want it to be. It sucks more if the people you do it for totally do not appreciate it. Worse still, if they dont help. Damn, if this is what it means to be the leader, I dont wanna be anymore. People are taking advantage. I have and sure do know my limits. Its so nearing the maximum line. To those who understand, this is a warning. And I expect you to spread it. I'll go at all costs if you want me to. But I expect you to give me just a small percentage as a return.

Boyfriend. Well, I've got nothing more to say. Simply because we hardly communicate. Yesterday was our month-sary. Hmm. Its the most mundane thing to ever happen at this period of time. It didnt even help us get more closer. Its too personal to let everyone read this. So I guess it will stay with me forever. Boyfriend dont even bother anymore. So why should I? I've said enough sorries, I've cried enough tears and I've admitted enough even though its not always my fault. I dont ever wanna spend my days and nights waiting for his never-coming msges or calls. It would be my fault if I didnt call him. But he is busy if he didnt call me. I guess he is beginning to regret knowing me. Maybe I changed.

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it is a shame I am your lover



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July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 + Credits Host: Blogger Layout © the bikini boy	Friday, November 02, 2007, 7:00 PM UGH! Darn I hate that stoopid BIG brother of shamefully, mine. He puts stoopid administrator password on this laptop which is so definitely NOT his alone so that I cant even upload pictures from my camera to my profile which I regretfully have to admit is in this laptop. Now everything have to go through him first. Gosh I really hate him before, and I hate him now!! So I'm sorry my dear friends you have to wait longer for the pictures. I'm so gonna let him know he is not the boss of everything. STOOPID DUMB GIGANTIC FREAK OF AN ASSHOLE!! So yesterday's Hari Raya outing with friends didnt end with a well not. Bcuz we realise we exceeded the limit and most of my friends do not have enough or rather more money to pay the driver. Sheesh! So we ended the charter at 9pm at Syirah's house. The first part is actually my fault. I din plan the pick ups properly so everything cock up. Yeah and the rest I can swear the its the driver's fault. He dont even know his roads larh sehh. So by the time we went to the North area which is actually mine and HamHam's house, more than half decided they have to go home. Most dont wanna miss the last bus or train. So those staying near our area decided to come along even though it is nearly midnight. Thanks korang2! So my house was the last house, and everyone was damn dead tired. But I must say I really enjoy the Mee Rebus at HamHam's house. Hehe! It was damn nice larh sehh. It has been sometime since I tasted Mee Rebus that nice. The last time was when a few months before my Mama passed away. That was more than a year ago. I cant stand the sight of her. Damn. I think my emotions are getting a little too wild. I cant control everything, lest its happiness. Haha! That can grow crazy too I think. She is just so totally getting me on my thinning nerves. She would practically not sleep at night, but instead yak on the phone or surf the net. Then she would sleep in the wee hours of the morning and wake up near afternoon. And because of that my house is in an utter mess because I cant tidy it as there is this lump of a person snoring. And you should have seen the state of my room. Its not totally tidy, but if its messy its usually mine. So I dont really mind, as long as I know how to tidy it back. But she doesnt know. She will left everything lying around on the floor and as soon as I messed up something, either MY bed or MY table she would take the chance and add to messing it up. Sometimes, my hands feel like I want to throw everything that screams HER out of the windows. At other times, my hands tingle to give her a one tight slap. Maybe two. Ohh boy I'm generous with my slaps. She just needs to ask for it and I'll give it to her. She is so not cute, plus I hate it when people say we look similar. Even my boyfriend!! GRR. She doesnt look like me, cuz she aint a princess nor is she pretty or anything like me okey? DAMN! And the worse thing is she thinks I'm so-oh-afraid-of-her. I think its the other way around. She always says she is there to listen when I talk. Well hello of course. I'm like OLDER. I'm the KAKAK for goodness sake. And she, she expects me to listen to her third rate nonsense which is not even worth lending an ear. Its so nonsensical. She is too gatal for me, too act-cute for me, too URGH! for me. Oh guess what, I've got assignments to do this holidays. What with the HK trip proposals and practice and whatever not, I still have yet to book a chalet. Yes. I'm so not in the mood already. The thing is, they dont appreciate it. Sometimes I just felt like throwing it down in their faces you know. So that they have just a lil taste of what I feel. Anyone would feel like I do, if your hard work doesnt pays off the way you want it to be. It sucks more if the people you do it for totally do not appreciate it. Worse still, if they dont help. Damn, if this is what it means to be the leader, I dont wanna be anymore. People are taking advantage. I have and sure do know my limits. Its so nearing the maximum line. To those who understand, this is a warning. And I expect you to spread it. I'll go at all costs if you want me to. But I expect you to give me just a small percentage as a return. Boyfriend. Well, I've got nothing more to say. Simply because we hardly communicate. Yesterday was our month-sary. Hmm. Its the most mundane thing to ever happen at this period of time. It didnt even help us get more closer. Its too personal to let everyone read this. So I guess it will stay with me forever. Boyfriend dont even bother anymore. So why should I? I've said enough sorries, I've cried enough tears and I've admitted enough even though its not always my fault. I dont ever wanna spend my days and nights waiting for his never-coming msges or calls. It would be my fault if I didnt call him. But he is busy if he didnt call me. I guess he is beginning to regret knowing me. Maybe I changed. Labels: fate-ing