It is a shame I am your lover.

Saturday, October 11, 2008, 12:07 PM

HELLO!

i'm back! i dont really bother if you all dont care, but heyy, i can choose to be soooo delusional kan? so lets just pretend everyone's excited to see me around again. haah!

i've been enjoying hari raya too much. this is my first year without any vehicle, but the experience is kinda fun. i like to see other families in their baju raya, cute sangat2. and those hott boys in their baju melayu, complete with kain samping and songkok, alahai.. tergoda sehh. hahaha! so met up with my relatives, who shameful to say, i met them only during this time. omg and this year is seriously the year of the babies! the number of babies in my family.. and they are all so cuuuuuuuuuttteee!! hahaha! i keep holding and kissing them, until they cry. but some are like super-duper adorable laaaaarrrhhh. cant wait to make babies myself. heeh! confirm lagi comel. :]

okayy so i've been stupid. in what? i'm nt gonna mention here, but i keep kicking at myself for being the most stupidest asshole for that day. that day only. i cant believe i forgot. i slipped my mind totally. those who knows, knows. those who doesnt, there's no need to know. right now, i'm kinda scared. like what the hell is going to happen to me? if its the negative, i've no one else to blame, other than myself. because its utterly my mistake. my most stupidest mistake. if its the positive, which i dont even dare to dream about, i'll be the most grateful human being on earth, for being given the chance again. god, i know i'm never the religious type all the time, but i know you're never tired of listening to me. maybe this is just your way of telling me not to be so careless. well guess what, i've learnt it the hard way. please, let there be a light at the end of the dark tunnel.

and and and. i've fallen in love all over again. okayy larh not exactly in love okayy. just a bit of that feeling, know what i mean? have always been, actually. hehehe. well i'm not exactly confused. i know i can leave anytime i want, but izzit right to do so, with the expense of someone else's broken heart? i should not have done what i've done. but i never regret the way things have turn out in my life. i guess everything happens for a reason, yes? so lets just see where this is going to lead me to. i hope its exciting. hahaha! :]

i'm still waiting for the raya outing with my friends this coming weekend. and still waiting for the rest of my friends to come my house. hahaha! cepat2 larh datang. nk catch up on things/gossips. ehem ehem. so see ya'll soon! :]

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Saturday, July 26, 2008, 9:25 AM

updates

i was kinda surprised that i did not blog for a long period of time, but then again, the same reason as always; i'm busy. alot has been happening, and by the end of the day i'm drained out of all my energy to actually update. truth be told, i actually wanted to close this blog down. but then i love showing my face off too much, so i decided against it.

okayy so actually on one of the past weekends, i went sentosa with a hott babe and 2 even hotter dudes. my only purpose was to get dark and spend time with them of course, but sadly, the dark part did not happened. so it gets me thinking, am i already too dark to notice any difference? hmm. so the day started with me going over the the babe's house and we went to bukit batok to meet one of the dude, and wait for the other dude. then it was lunch first, and we were in the water. it is super nice to relax and watched other silly acts. hahahaha! and when there is a nice camera around, what will happen? a typical duh, we cam-whored. pictures will be up soon, depending on my mood.

then we ate again, or rather only me and one of the dude ate. after that we went for a game of pool. or rather, the dudes had a game of pool. i'm sure most of you ppl have seen my game of pool, right? well theirs' is superb if you compared it to my normal horrendous pool skills. i vowed never to critisize any guy when it comes to a game of pool. take that as an advice people. then its a packet of famous amos for me, because i was simply craving for one, and home sweet home for me only. i was mathematically the youngest alright, so whaddya expect.

so what else? practically my days were spent with the babe. simply alot happened, and some stuff i dont find comfortable putting it here. but whatever it is, i'll always be there for anybody who needs me. it did not matter who, if i'm on your mind you know my number and i'll be by your side. just remember that.

school. well it doesnt really suck as much, now that mye is over. but the prospect of promos looms bigger than ever. collected my results, and i did well if compared to last year, but there is always room for improvement. damn my maths! gosh is there any potions that will make me love maths? i'll gladly give my heart and soul in return for payment. the fact will always remained that i did my very best for it, and still only managed a fail. big time, wtf.

to tell you the truth, i really miss you. okay fine, in this matter i admit i was the wrong one. but you understand dont you, that i have another heart to care about, another heart not to break? i'll always stand by my stand that you can always talk things out with me. to see you not being there, i naturally turn to another person. dont play mind games with me, i'll lose. my eq is exceptionally the lowest in the whole wide population of the world, so just be straight with me. dont bother about me getting hurt, because i hardly do. i mean c'mon, i'm the one who hurts people right? if you need my answers to your questions, logically i'm the best person for you to ask right? why go around one whole way to find out that it was never answered?

dear you,

everytime i made up my mind

something will crop up.

please say its the same with you too.

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it is a shame I am your lover



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i'm nt gonna mention here, but i keep kicking at myself for being the most stupidest asshole for that day. that day only. i cant believe i forgot. i slipped my mind totally. those who knows, knows. those who doesnt, there's no need to know. right now, i'm kinda scared. like what the hell is going to happen to me? if its the negative, i've no one else to blame, other than myself. because its utterly my mistake. my most stupidest mistake. if its the positive, which i dont even dare to dream about, i'll be the most grateful human being on earth, for being given the chance again. god, i know i'm never the religious type all the time, but i know you're never tired of listening to me. maybe this is just your way of telling me not to be so careless. well guess what, i've learnt it the hard way. please, let there be a light at the end of the dark tunnel. and and and. i've fallen in love all over again. okayy larh not exactly in love okayy. just a bit of that feeling, know what i mean? have always been, actually. hehehe. well i'm not exactly confused. i know i can leave anytime i want, but izzit right to do so, with the expense of someone else's broken heart? i should not have done what i've done. but i never regret the way things have turn out in my life. i guess everything happens for a reason, yes? so lets just see where this is going to lead me to. i hope its exciting. hahaha! :] i'm still waiting for the raya outing with my friends this coming weekend. and still waiting for the rest of my friends to come my house. hahaha! cepat2 larh datang. nk catch up on things/gossips. ehem ehem. so see ya'll soon! :] Labels: updates Saturday, July 26, 2008, 9:25 AM updates i was kinda surprised that i did not blog for a long period of time, but then again, the same reason as always; i'm busy. alot has been happening, and by the end of the day i'm drained out of all my energy to actually update. truth be told, i actually wanted to close this blog down. but then i love showing my face off too much, so i decided against it. okayy so actually on one of the past weekends, i went sentosa with a hott babe and 2 even hotter dudes. my only purpose was to get dark and spend time with them of course, but sadly, the dark part did not happened. so it gets me thinking, am i already too dark to notice any difference? hmm. so the day started with me going over the the babe's house and we went to bukit batok to meet one of the dude, and wait for the other dude. then it was lunch first, and we were in the water. it is super nice to relax and watched other silly acts. hahahaha! and when there is a nice camera around, what will happen? a typical duh, we cam-whored. pictures will be up soon, depending on my mood. then we ate again, or rather only me and one of the dude ate. after that we went for a game of pool. or rather, the dudes had a game of pool. i'm sure most of you ppl have seen my game of pool, right? well theirs' is superb if you compared it to my normal horrendous pool skills. i vowed never to critisize any guy when it comes to a game of pool. take that as an advice people. then its a packet of famous amos for me, because i was simply craving for one, and home sweet home for me only. i was mathematically the youngest alright, so whaddya expect. so what else? practically my days were spent with the babe. simply alot happened, and some stuff i dont find comfortable putting it here. but whatever it is, i'll always be there for anybody who needs me. it did not matter who, if i'm on your mind you know my number and i'll be by your side. just remember that. school. well it doesnt really suck as much, now that mye is over. but the prospect of promos looms bigger than ever. collected my results, and i did well if compared to last year, but there is always room for improvement. damn my maths! gosh is there any potions that will make me love maths? i'll gladly give my heart and soul in return for payment. the fact will always remained that i did my very best for it, and still only managed a fail. big time, wtf. to tell you the truth, i really miss you. okay fine, in this matter i admit i was the wrong one. but you understand dont you, that i have another heart to care about, another heart not to break? i'll always stand by my stand that you can always talk things out with me. to see you not being there, i naturally turn to another person. dont play mind games with me, i'll lose. my eq is exceptionally the lowest in the whole wide population of the world, so just be straight with me. dont bother about me getting hurt, because i hardly do. i mean c'mon, i'm the one who hurts people right? if you need my answers to your questions, logically i'm the best person for you to ask right? why go around one whole way to find out that it was never answered? dear you, everytime i made up my mind something will crop up. please say its the same with you too. 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