280608; it was a wonderful night. kudos to all current members of sembwinds for doing so fantastically well, and rising up to the occasion as usual. it was definitely worth the time spent with you people, and seeing hard work paying off. to the sembwinds alumni, it has been enjoyable performing alongside you talented asses. hahaha! and to those who attended the concert, millions of thanks. to those who did not, nevertheless we still got that bit of profit, so thanks too. thank you to twin sista, mr bestfriend, nurul, nuriah, hafiz, norfidiana and azimah for coming.

well as usual in life, you dont always get the things you want right. sometimes, i wonder whether i should get what i need, or what i want. both of the needs and wants definitely tempt me more than anything else would. i dont know what nonsense am i talking about right now, but i hope the decision i am going to make will not ruin things further. i know myself for making hasty decisions, decisions that i will deeply regret in later part of my life. but really, isnt life about gambling with your choices?

i will never know which aspects in life should i be changing now. or which part is so perfect i should just leave it that way. i'm used to sleeping thinking about a particular stuff, that when abruptly its taken away from me, i'm quite lost. what am i suppose to think about? then when i wake up, its a stretch of endless blank.

i never wanted to see the end, regardless of what i say to nobody in particular. i've made my choice, but it feels like i'm still groping in the dark, wondering whether i made the right one. to not know whats my final destination sucks more. where would i end up, if this is the end that i choose?

there are, i hope, some blessings behind all this. maybe there is something planned in the future. i dont know, and i dont even know if i care to know. this is life. i'm sure no one better than you knows that life is not fair. all i'm asking is, from beginning to the end, why me?

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The Bottom Line
You could be very influenced by a sweet talker today, so be cynical and smart.

In Detail
Making choices is a very enjoyable task for you now, so embrace all your options and evaluate your options with your head as well as your heart. Your energy is clear and a lot of detail work is behind you, so this is a very good day for decision making. However, you could be very influenced by a sweet talker too, so make sure you're basing your deductions on facts and figures, not opinions. There are three sides to every story: their side, your side, and the truth.

I just knew there are 3 sides to every story. And I totally believe that it is true. The truth is the most important side to all stories. So that is a lesson learnt and to be remembered.

So this will be the last weekend before my open torture. I've been tortured to be exact. My brain and mind was and is still being bullied to remember facts that is just a little too difficult to memorise. Plus it is gonna be a hassle week for me as my younger brother is sitting for his PSLE soon. I'm so not looking forward. I've to devote my time to both his studies and mine, which if I may say, is not really up to standard. I dont even dare to think where I'll be if I just happen to not able to make it. I wouldnt know where to put my face. This wont be the kind of dismayal that I've ever face and dont ever wanna face.

It was actually a relieve for this round of examinations. My most hatred subject is set as the last paper for the first week. I would of course give me more time to do more-than-ever-needed revision. Wish me luck lurves. I need all of it that I could have.

Best of luck to all my friends and classmates too. We have gone this far to throw away all our hard work and effort. Just give our final bestest for this year before proceeding to next year with our heads held high up in the air, prepared to face a new set of challenges. Lets all do it folks. Lurve korang2 sumer!

To my Hubby. Thanks for enduring the long days and even longer weeks without me, even though I knew you can never live through it peacefully. Right..? And I lurve you too. Always.

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