It is a shame I am your lover.

Tuesday, July 01, 2008, 8:51 AM

its just life

280608; it was a wonderful night. kudos to all current members of sembwinds for doing so fantastically well, and rising up to the occasion as usual. it was definitely worth the time spent with you people, and seeing hard work paying off. to the sembwinds alumni, it has been enjoyable performing alongside you talented asses. hahaha! and to those who attended the concert, millions of thanks. to those who did not, nevertheless we still got that bit of profit, so thanks too. thank you to twin sista, mr bestfriend, nurul, nuriah, hafiz, norfidiana and azimah for coming.

well as usual in life, you dont always get the things you want right. sometimes, i wonder whether i should get what i need, or what i want. both of the needs and wants definitely tempt me more than anything else would. i dont know what nonsense am i talking about right now, but i hope the decision i am going to make will not ruin things further. i know myself for making hasty decisions, decisions that i will deeply regret in later part of my life. but really, isnt life about gambling with your choices?

i will never know which aspects in life should i be changing now. or which part is so perfect i should just leave it that way. i'm used to sleeping thinking about a particular stuff, that when abruptly its taken away from me, i'm quite lost. what am i suppose to think about? then when i wake up, its a stretch of endless blank.

i never wanted to see the end, regardless of what i say to nobody in particular. i've made my choice, but it feels like i'm still groping in the dark, wondering whether i made the right one. to not know whats my final destination sucks more. where would i end up, if this is the end that i choose?

there are, i hope, some blessings behind all this. maybe there is something planned in the future. i dont know, and i dont even know if i care to know. this is life. i'm sure no one better than you knows that life is not fair. all i'm asking is, from beginning to the end, why me?

Labels: this is just another phase of my life to be remembered.

it is a shame I am your lover



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