It is a shame I am your lover.

Sunday, May 18, 2008, 8:06 PM

because its true.

so i'm crapping right? i'm just sprouting nonsense about me and you. whatever i said is never the truth. hell, i have only my friends. well tell you what, most of my friends are happily attached to some people they said who is their better half, and they definitely dont have all the time in the world for me. for that time, i turn to you. tell me where have i gone wrong? have i not given in enough for you? have i not tried my very best in everything i did just for you? why cant you just talk? it aint that difficult baby, i just wish you knew. if you knew someone who could love you better than i could ever do, then tell me. if you knew someone who could make you so much happier, then tell me. i've exhausted my vocabulary in trying to make you understand. okay fine i know my mistakes okay. but tell me clear what you wanted us to become. my friends are just my friends, and nobody will be able to take their places. you are my love, and they will never be able to take your place.

i got no mood to do anything usual today. all i did was eat mee soto, read, disturb my siblings, drink honey ice blended, and tried singing. hahaha. was trying to get myself in a better mood, see? i want to go out, but i dont wanna disturb anybody's sunday. was missing him so badly, but i know better than trying to call him. but i couldnt resist it. hahaha! i think he's irritated by me, but what the hell. i'm as stubborn as a mule, and after being together for nearly one year, you should know better.

work is piling up. and revision is piling up more than ever. please god, give me the strength to go through this particularly difficult phase. whatever you are planning for me, i know you think i'm strong enough for it. but i certainly doubt so. school, family, boyfriend. sheesh.

this is an immensely dense and moody post. but wth. this is what i'm feeling now. i seek only to my Creator. i know i havent been faithfully praying to you, and maybe this is just a punishment to make me remember you. but i think you knew, deep down, there's no one i fear and love more than you.

okayy stop it ehh zati. on a more brighter note, i wanna watch congkak. okay that's not really a happy movie, but i think i've went a little cuckoo. for goodness sake, me watching a horror movie. go on people, buy toto. you'll win first price. hahaha! and i wanna watch prince caspian. i wanna watch my ever favourite hindustan movie. still looking for someone who wants to watch it with me. anybody?

tomorrow, public holidays. wee! i think its vesak day right. whatever it is, i promised i wanted to study the whole day. maybe start they day with a little run. hahaha! okay here's another reason why you should buy toto. hahaha! and i have a cip to do on thursday, which is absolutely loved, because its a long day, and there's pe. hahaha. so it means we skip that. but, we are going to this far far away school at punggol. mee toh primary school. according to fandi, the school hasnt been used for more than 5 years. yeahh cool uh.

ps: your picture on my pillows.

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it is a shame I am your lover



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