It is a shame I am your lover.

Friday, August 24, 2007, 7:14 PM

my butt feels like a bomb.

My butt is still sore from the jab yesterday. For those who din know what happened and cared enough to know what was wrong, I'll mention it in a short while. For those who happened to read and was curious to know well just read on ok. Yesterday, after having my PE lesson and eating a plate of not-so-delicious cream cheese pasta with spaghetti or whatever it is called, I had this very bad ache on the left side of my stomach. It was agony cuz I also happened to have my first day of menses and if you knew me well enough my first day usually are accompanied by menses cramp. I din know what was happening to me. I had vomitted twice and after the second round I suddenly had this very very bad headache. Then the pain. It was more than I could handle and I think I dropped down on my fours because I really could not walk anymore. It was unexplainable. The pain I mean. So there was I crying my heart out and looking so not pretty. Actually I did not care. Not yet really. So they managed to get me on the wheelchair that appeared out of nowhere and wheeled me to the sick bay. Over there, the pain was really very bad and then of all things my friends started to cry. So I was feeling kinda overwhelmed that they cared so much for me but at the same time I wanted them to be strong for me because I knew I couldnt take it on my own. Then came some makciks. They started praying for me and I swear I thought I was going to die. It was something I never experienced before and I admit, I was scared out of my wits. Then I think the ambulance came and I was more or less a lil comforted to know some proffesionals were on hand to help me in case I really did die or something. They got me on oxygen and I was suprised I did not faint yet because it was really painful. Then I was on the ambulance and in there was when it really mattered that I wasnt looking nice. Haha! One of the medics wiped away my tears whenever I cried!! And did I mention that he talked nicely, almost lovingly towards me? Haha! Yeah whatever. So when I was in the hospital I heard the nurse said I got the handsome boy and I was like "Oh gosh this is bad!" in my heart. GRR! Then the usual hospital thingy. I waited for a totally of 2 hours before a doctor finally managed to see me. That 2 hours din pass without me scolding some stupid nurses who cant even locate my belongings and also did not know if someone is outside waiting for me. I mean, WTH. This is so not cool. So even then they could not determine what exactly I have but I was suspected of having kidney stones, which the doc says was very painful and he was surprised that I managed to hold on without passing out yet. I just smiled sarcastically really. Then I'm discharged with an appointment next week.

I want to mention the names of my friends who were there for me: Amirah, Aini, Ria, Fathona, Raihanah, Hafiz, Izyan, Sharifah, Anwar, Muna. Thanks for being there for me and holding me tight. Without you people I wouldnt be able to hold on that way. There is no words to describe how I appreciate everything you guys did. Thanks alot. Lurve korang sangat2.

To my darling Hubby, thanks for being strong for me. You are one of the reasons I managed to come unharmed. Thanks so much. I lurve you and nothing can ever separate us without our consent. Lurve you sangat2.

To my family, I always knew you would never leave me alone. You are yet another reason I hanged on. Sweet lurve.

To my God. Thanks for giving me the chance to repent. I believe you knew what I am going to say. Please continue guiding me and showing me the right way. I know I could always lean on you for my support, even if I'm all alone in this world.

To my mama, I knew you are looking at me from up above there. I miss you so much but I would never erase our moments together. Your care and love for me I would always cherish. I lurve you forever.

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it is a shame I am your lover



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I had vomitted twice and after the second round I suddenly had this very very bad headache. Then the pain. It was more than I could handle and I think I dropped down on my fours because I really could not walk anymore. It was unexplainable. The pain I mean. So there was I crying my heart out and looking so not pretty. Actually I did not care. Not yet really. So they managed to get me on the wheelchair that appeared out of nowhere and wheeled me to the sick bay. Over there, the pain was really very bad and then of all things my friends started to cry. So I was feeling kinda overwhelmed that they cared so much for me but at the same time I wanted them to be strong for me because I knew I couldnt take it on my own. Then came some makciks. They started praying for me and I swear I thought I was going to die. It was something I never experienced before and I admit, I was scared out of my wits. Then I think the ambulance came and I was more or less a lil comforted to know some proffesionals were on hand to help me in case I really did die or something. They got me on oxygen and I was suprised I did not faint yet because it was really painful. Then I was on the ambulance and in there was when it really mattered that I wasnt looking nice. Haha! One of the medics wiped away my tears whenever I cried!! And did I mention that he talked nicely, almost lovingly towards me? Haha! Yeah whatever. So when I was in the hospital I heard the nurse said I got the handsome boy and I was like "Oh gosh this is bad!" in my heart. GRR! Then the usual hospital thingy. I waited for a totally of 2 hours before a doctor finally managed to see me. That 2 hours din pass without me scolding some stupid nurses who cant even locate my belongings and also did not know if someone is outside waiting for me. I mean, WTH. This is so not cool. So even then they could not determine what exactly I have but I was suspected of having kidney stones, which the doc says was very painful and he was surprised that I managed to hold on without passing out yet. I just smiled sarcastically really. Then I'm discharged with an appointment next week. I want to mention the names of my friends who were there for me: Amirah, Aini, Ria, Fathona, Raihanah, Hafiz, Izyan, Sharifah, Anwar, Muna. Thanks for being there for me and holding me tight. Without you people I wouldnt be able to hold on that way. There is no words to describe how I appreciate everything you guys did. Thanks alot. Lurve korang sangat2. To my darling Hubby, thanks for being strong for me. You are one of the reasons I managed to come unharmed. Thanks so much. I lurve you and nothing can ever separate us without our consent. Lurve you sangat2. To my family, I always knew you would never leave me alone. You are yet another reason I hanged on. Sweet lurve. To my God. Thanks for giving me the chance to repent. I believe you knew what I am going to say. Please continue guiding me and showing me the right way. I know I could always lean on you for my support, even if I'm all alone in this world. To my mama, I knew you are looking at me from up above there. I miss you so much but I would never erase our moments together. Your care and love for me I would always cherish. I lurve you forever. Labels: A dedication to all my loved ones.