Shits. I know you are super-duperly mad at me. It was one of those things I kept doing to you right? But it wasnt intentional. At least I thought it wasnt. I thought I knew you enough to decide things for the both of us, but evidently, I was wrong. I didnt know what you have went through the past few days of course. I thought it was just any normal army days for you. I guess I was too engrossed in my own life to bother about you. I dont know what am I supposed to do now. Saying sorry is out of the question I guess. You wont meet me. You wont talk to me. Trust me, I've experienced enough to feel your anger, your disappointment. But by doing this it wont be able to help either any of us. I tried my best to pick up from where I fell and prepared myself to give you the best of me, but you just wouldnt give me the chance. Egoistic you could be, I swallowed my dislikes. My patience level has maximised, I think I've done enough to let you know about that. Please stop acting like some kid. I told you, I realised my mistakes. I know Nothing can correct what I did. I could never turn back those lost times but I could try to make it up to you in the future. You accused me of not being the same girl as I am. But you wouldnt let me be the same. Just what am I suppose to be then? Our love for each other is not a compromise; I dont have to be the girl that you want me to be. If you are not feeling secure enough about our relationship, then by all means do something about it. As far as I am concern, I have been truthful to you, faithfully sticking up by your side. Loving you is as normal as breathing for me. Please Hubby dont let it all go. Sometimes I wish my thoughts were a megaphone, so that you would know how many times I prayed for your well-being, praised you with honeyed words. Maybe then would you believe me. This has been our longest fight. And our most childish. I thought being far from each other would strenghten our relationship. I do not want to waste my time missing you during your 1 week away from me. I need you by my side. I want you to pamper me like you used to do. I want you to continue calling me Honey. I want your hugs that will make me feel so safe. I want you to love me like no one ever could. Dont let me go my dear.