It is a shame I am your lover.

Sunday, April 06, 2008, 5:23 PM

fuck off. really.

i just cannot believe that you can make me look like a complete arse. and the worst part was, i managed to fall for it. now i'm all paranoid, thinking that you and you are laughing over my stupidity, and that only makes things worse. now i could not look at you with the same light. i dont need you to pity me, for goodness sake. i am completely capable of making my own friends, without you introducing them to me and then, have secrets with each other, thinking i'll never know. well guess what? i did find out. i'm not going to be sorry if i lost my temper at you sooner or later. because, right now, i seriously think you deserve it. like big time. let me get this straight, i hate the fact that you managed to make me feel so stupid of myself, because i hold you in a high position as my friend. now you've lost it, and there is absolutely no point in trying to get back in that position.

and to the one and only guy in my life. i dont know what is really happening. but i'm gonna pray hard that its going to stop. i doubt that you understand what i meant. but our relationship is not and never a game. its not even a gamble. i know for sure. so decide what you want. whatever decision you make, i hope its for the best of both of us.

anyways, went for band practice as usual. gosh. i really could not believe that the current band dares to remind us about such things. what's up with the "our scores" and "our bandroom" shit? if not because of us, there wont be such things okay. you guys are nothing but complacent bunch of idiots, thinking you are one big shot because you belong to the best band in the whole wide world. but really, you only belong to the band. you dont even make the band what it is. i will never dare say such things of my seniors, so i dont see you people dare to.

well anyways, we had to do new pieces that i swear are so alien for me. and lets just say i dont really favour the pieces larh. but it doesnt really matter. yeahh so we played some familiar pieces that really really bring back the nice memories. but its tiring. haah.

then after straightaway met norfi at jurong nlb. well that ass was late so we couldnt get the place she promised to get because she intentionally wanted to wake up early to get us a place. yeahh right norfi. so in the end we headed to macdonalds and i just had to buy something because i'm super hungry. like really starving hungry. we attempted some maths questions but in the end abandoned it because we just could not do it. then we did a few of our homeworks. i managed to complete geography, irp, but not the sajak. sheesh. now i remembered i've to do the sajak. ohh yeah i promised to blog about this anyways. norfi saved the day because there is a hairband in her bag, something i could have sweared she doesnt have. haha. so she tied my hair, skillfully according to her. i could have met marcus, but she just doesnt want me to meet her beloved. like wth kan.

so after that we walked to get something i cannot remember what, and headed home. norfi being the nice friend that she is, waited for the bus with me. yeahh and i think i snored when i'm in the bus. haha! i was totally oblivious to the situation until this hot guy took up the seat beside me. haha! before that i swear no one wanted to seat beside me. wth kan.

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it is a shame I am your lover



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